there's not a time you're not on my mind. i feel as though you don't understand mine. nothing in common, but everything is there. the chemistry. the possibility. i wanna know more, i wanna hear more. sorry 'bout all the fear. i wanna listen while you're busy talking. but every time i try to i shut down. there's not a moment i'm not busy hoping you'll see me in the way that i saw you yesterday. lying for hours and you're still in my head. i'd do anything to get someone else in there instead. i wanna know more, i wanna hear more. sorry i'm so afraid to tell you the things i'm singing to my phone at 2am.

pacing and singing the words that i'm feeling. will this be worth it? will you start to listen? i'm letting go of what i know. borrowed my sorrow, now i want it back. i'm taking a step to remaining intact. i'm giving off what i thought. hypnotized by the way i feel when you're on my mind. is anything even real? what i really want is anything but. i don't want to lay around by the phone for you to call. i know you were going through it, but i'm not taking back it at all. i'm setting free what i feel. i'm giving you space. isn't that what you want? if i'm backing up i just want you to know that no longer am i waiting for. i'm sorry for everything but i can't help it. i know i scared you off. thanks for giving me a chance to convince you, but i always lose. i'm not blaming you for anything. i know you did everything you had to. now for once i'm letting go of the feelings i keep feeling in my soul.

don't you know that i'm afraid of the way i feel? and the moment you tell me i deny that it's real? impossible night, incredible sight. how could i ignore you? if i could, i'd never take my eyes off you, right? in this beautiful sight. the light is shining across your face. it gleams and i don't feel out of place at all. this is where the magic happens. this is where the sparks take place. this is where the moonlight shakes and everything is on you. a spotlight, no sunlight in your eyes. you take mine and entwine our hands. don't you know that i'm afraid of the way i feel? and the moment i notice i deny it's real? unbelievable night, breathtaking sight. but it's right in front of me. if i could, i'd never take my eyes off you, right? you're a beautiful sight. you're golden now, it's that time of day. stop staring at me but i don't feel out of place at all. this is where the magic happens. this is where the butterflies live. in a world where everything is perfect. but reality never forgives. don't you know that i hate that i can feel? but in the moment it seems like it's too real. spotlight. the sunlight in your eyes. you take mine. and intertwine our hands.

i can't close my eyes without picturing your face. i can't look at you without imagining your embrace. how am i supposed to just push those memories away? she tells me i'm better off. it was confusing from the start. is she right? so why am i still holding on to everything? nothing even happened. if i was selfish, then i'm sorry. i told myself not to worry, but i did. i can't hear your voice or i might start to remember. i can't hear your name. this is more difficult by the hour. what changed to make you go away? in one day, what happened? was it what i said? should i have kept it in instead? i think you misunderstood; i understand. i know it's my bad. just take my hand. tell me everything is gonna be okay. not anymore... you closed the door. you want nothing to do with me now. two weeks ago tonight, my head was in the clouds. i was a fool. how could i think this would help? i showed you too much. i should've kept it to myself. you're probably rolling your eyes. don't care at all if i cry. if i was quieter, might this never happened? i'd be okay tonight. you're probably telling her why. that i said things that just aren't true and i didn't mean. you used to look at me and smile. now there's only a glare in your eyes. i'm still trying to convince myself i don't care at all but i do. we were nothing at all. insignificant and small. so why do i care at all? you said that i lost feelings just to get me to admit you weren't wrong. you could've told me how you felt. or i guess, didn't feel at all. you said you got played in a jokingly way just to take off all suspicions from you. i shouldn't care at all. i shouldn't care at all. so why do i care at all?

i heard you say i was special. i bet you said that to all them. don't you think i was dumb and gullible, the new girl. do you know what i mean? there's so much more i need to say to you. but words just seem to make it worse. every time you talk to me lately it just puts me in a bad mood. i'm so mad at you it hurts. the fact that i can't get over is even worse. now that there's no chance i might see you again, can you say what for? what gives? why? how come you did? why? i heard that you were so worried. you couldn't eat or work at all. so now i'm trying to retrace my steps. i should hate you. why don't i hate you? i'm so mad at you it hurts. who says a thing like that, then acts like it was nothing? and i'm still feeling, which is worse. go away, get out of my head. i'm so tired that it hurts. there's no pain in your voice, did it matter? even though we had no chance, wasn't it fun while it lasted? i still remember exactly what you said. now we're just strangers with a secret. some hidden memory i can never share. good, i don't want to. why would i want to? i should hate you. why don't i hate you? i should hate you. i just can't hate you.

letting go is not my strong suit. i'll hold onto you for a while. i want nothing more than to forget, but you're in my head. you're in my head. communication led me nowhere. it felt like nothing i said or did was enough. i know i'm not easy. i fall too quick. i should've resisted you. letting go is not my strong suit. i've held on for too long at this point. you stood beside, looked at me as you lied to my face. why?

faster than the wind blows. nothing like my heartbreak in february. hotter than my face when you used to look at me. colder than the night of. nothing like my smile when you said i was beautiful. emptier than i felt when everyone left. why did i? i don't know. tell me leave and watch me go. watch my feelings resign as my entire mind. and i just need some rest for a year to forget. slower than my healing. failure of resistance and timing. we knew how it ends. when we were more than friends. we know how this ends. we can never be friends.

i can't tell you what makes me laugh anymore. i can't know you like i tried to before. i can't tell you that last night you made me feel like this. but i'm over it. you don't understand, when you tell me to open up, you should've meant it. i don't understand, when you told me i was special, that it wasn't enough. you should've meant it. i can't tell you how i wanted to hold you tighter. your face is everywhere. in my dreams, haunting my sleep. your name is everywhere. echoing in my head. now i wanna know why your face is everywhere. in my dreams, haunting my sleep. your name is everywhere. echoing in my head.

i watch you run around, maybe trying to impress me or you're probably not thinking. as your smile takes over your face. just for a second you look in my eyes. my heart is open. forever hoping you'll come back to me. i know it wasn't right. but i still want it. do you know how perfect that'd be? every day i could've seen you. every day i could've been with you. as i look at you, from across the room you smile, and i melt for a while. your hand inches closer. my face is getting red. i know that we just met, but i want to hold you close. do you want the same as me? do you feel the same as me tonight? as you avoid me in the hall, you probably saw my face fall. i'm sorry i ever thought this could be more. like turns into love... i was dumb to think that was enough.

should i write a million songs before you get it? taking me for granted. are you really that dense? i don't need your pitied help. go confuse someone else. don't take this as a sign of weakness. the start of everything is always bliss. i don't want your illusions. we're part of my imagination. i lost time and my mind. i tried and you lied. i wrote a million songs for you to get it. but you still didn't know what you had when you had it. i know it's always over and for that i say i'm fine. believe me when i tell you: wrong person, wrong time. i don't wanna wait. my fresh start had just begun. why don't you have remorse? someday it could've been love. but you wanted to run.

i thought it was more than what you said. i was wrong. i thought there was more to what you meant. i was wrong. i guess i can't be surprised. when i looked into your eyes, it was just too good to be true. i don't think it was a lie, but it happened so fast. i think i was a fool to cry for you. i thought, i hoped, i prayed that this was different. all that's left are some things we hadn't said. if you just knew what i meant, would it be this difficult? i guess i can't be surprised, 'cause when you looked in my eyes i was blinded by your light. i couldn't see anything else, i watched everything melt away by your golden light.. this wasn't supposed to be a song about how i felt. you didn't know what i wanted. after all, now there's really nothing left. take all my memory with you. i can't decide what's on my mind. is it you or the feeling i had with you?

i guess that this is fair. your stares turned into glares. you were my deepest fantasy. don't they always turn to tragedy? you yell across the tent. what exactly have you meant? i look the other direction. there stands our broken connection. i feel my rosed cheeks hours to days to weeks. the second she passes, i'm headed towards the sink. then i'm frozen. you cut my heart then tore it open. and say you thought we were friends. what do you think happened that february high? a lie?

i don't care what they say. i'll be there anyway. i just need the word from you. i just need the words from you. i don't care if they say you don't care. are you insane? the words from you... i just need the words from you.

i wanted to show you all the places i knew. we'd have our own. i wanted to tell you every secret i knew. would they have been safe with you? high and low, the places we'd go... leave your sorrows at the door. hidden meadows, harder to let go. leave your worries at the door. i wanted to know you, be the one you go to. why do we walk by instead? i almost knew you. been the one you went to. now we walk by, eyes ahead. low and high, who says it's goodbye? please don't lie, just say it outright. i liked you better when i didn't know you almost weaving our hands, could've said you didn't want to. did you like me better when i didn't want you? time is running out when i run outside. everything is you. stuck in my brain. 221 days, stuck in my brain. only you make me smile by just looking at your face. stuck in my brain. leave our memories at the door.

take in the moment. still leave me broken beside you. following instincts. hi to everyone besides you. hollowing heart bended the wrong way. i will forget the things you said to me. in retrospect you're calling me. ongoing affliction. defending for the things i guess you never said. take in the fresh air. painfully aware then heedless. don't ask me why. is this another lie? do you think the only wrong was me being selfish? following your eyes when you make a move? still in love with everything you said to me. hypnotized by your faux apology. ongoing conflict. defending for all of the things i know you said. why am i still praying you will not resent me? i figure i can take this lesson and forget you... you.

i've almost let go, i can tell. only two times a day, flashback to when i fell. i'm looking at you how i used to. ask me again, but you know too well. i thought it was the last time. even after all this time i find more. i'm dreaming of you how i used to. wish i never saw that message. they all know you were out of line. and every time you touch my face with your eyes. so intimate. your iris is the 4th of july. it feels so wrong, but i wish i was yours, even though you're mine.

how was i supposed to know you'd trade me for a girl who didn't want you how i did? how was i supposed to know you'd trade me for someone who didn't feel the things that i did? i see your face in my mirror taking up the space in my mind. how i wish you were mine. you look at me with those sad eyes. i stop myself from saying that it's gonna be alright. how was i supposed to know you'd take my heart and crush it in the palm of your hand? looking back, i see you looking at me. i don't know if it was intentional but i hope you didn't see. i see your face in my dream tonight, taking up the space in my mind. i used to wish you'd be mine. you look at me with those sad eyes. and i feel bad, but baby, you don't know what i went through. don't look at me, you know i can't help myself falling to the ground at your feet. the grass is greener in your eyes. i still forget where i am for a moment. i nearly melted when our hands touched. it was too much for my heartbeat. like a cartoon, ripped my heart right out my chest. i wonder if you felt it too. i see your face in every dream at night. i wonder if i've ever been in yours. you look at me with those lovely eyes. i think you're more beautiful than you've been before. how was i supposed to know you'd have this impact on me? i thought it was just butterflies. how was i supposed to know it'd be 9 months and more? i'm still tasting the blood of your lies.

back to that friday when you put my bin on the shelf. you probably don't remember when you spoke up for me as i melt. back to the thursday when she told me it was nothing. i wish i never told you, but you said i was making it worse. how come that happened either way? yet you still come and take my breath away. overthinking every word you say. everything you do, you're always on my mind. wasting seconds i'd be standing in line. i can't be her, just around when it's convenient. how dare you come and take my breath away. they're disappearing again like those days. no matter what i do, you're still in my dreams. no matter what you say, you're never quite what you seem. say to me what you're saying to them. i never even get to know. say to me a genuine apology. but i don't want it if you don't mean it too. all you do is take my breath away. over and over in every single word you say. lost in your eyes again. the feeling i get is bent a little. but i still... you know.

every look you send, i wanna be more of your friend. do you see my frustration when you won't give up? every truth you break leaves me flat on my face. i almost give in, you start to resist. the ice was getting too thin. every time i close my eyes i get a flashback of that night. your smile replays on my screen before i press delete. your golden hair in the corner. your gaze across the room. who cares in this moment as long as i wanted you? i regret all the things we did. i take back every thing we said, 'cause maybe i misread the feeling you swore you had. i regret all the things i did. i take back everything i said. outside the room, telling you what i want is you. was that even true? i regret looking in your eyes. i regret saying hi instead of goodbye. maybe if i lied and said you weren't the one on my mind. every look you send, i wanna be more than your friend. do you see my frustration? i don't wanna pretend.

i'm at a loss for words. you might be lying, i heard. how did i ever miss? i told myself i wouldn't do this. i'm so afraid of love, yet these birds circling above my head... it's better to be afraid, i say. i'm not at all surprised you're in my head tonight. i'm holding on too tight. watch me fall apart again. i'm at a loss for words. you're the same person you were. only other thing you did was remind me that i'll never have enough to give. if you were listening, how'd you go that far? keep trying to convince yourself you didn't break my heart. you do it all out of love... you thought that just because i'm still thinking of it 9 long months later that i hate your guts. i know it didn't mean as much to you as it did to me 'cause how are you are okay? i wish i knew why i still care for you. and how are you okay? i wish you knew how much i cared about you. i'm at a loss for words. every step i take i'm reminded of the day we met. still thinking of your smiling face. i remember the day we came back. i yelled at myself in my head. if i didn't, i wouldn't be intact.

i'm so confused. am i missing cues? do you want more than what i can give you, darling? how can i help? tell me to open up then close yourself. tell me the truth, do you think of me half as much as i think about you? i wish you knew, i wish you knew, i wish you knew, i wish you knew how much i... i wish you knew you knew, i wish you knew, i wish you knew how much i love... your stare in the afternoon, even though it makes me feel like i'm falling away. your hair when it's dyed or it's natural or tied up or tied down or just there. she doesn't compare. she feels the way i do about you. maybe it'd be easier if we could choose who we wanted. maybe it'd be easier to choose who we wanted. would i ever be wanted? i couldn't refuse. busy missing all of you. if you need more, go and find what i can't give you, darling.

your back against my hands, never again. colors, they start to fade. drinking at ten. laying by myself. i didn't know you. did i ever know you? go and take my heart. leave me be, tear me apart. there is no right answer to this equation. when we talk, i'm a piece of paper resisting temptation. your words should mean nothing when they're nine months late. focus, disintegrated in front of my face. staying as long as i can. don't wanna be like you. how do you not see through? go and take my hand. carry out your dark, irreversible plan. there is no right answer to this equation. the first night i went to sleep, i smiled at nothing. was i anything to you, to you, to you? think i loved... think i wanted something different. something honest. feel free to take my heart. not that i could even object; you're such a delicate art. there is one right answer to this equation. feelings you brought me were too much to ever be friends. what do you not understand about what we were? are you purposely trying to break me? loud silence hurts. i should just run; would anyone come? feeling so useless. how do you do it?

i close my eyes, your face remains. if i had known that one thing it would have changed everything. i see your head down across the room. every other time i look you're looking at me too. if i didn't feel like it was all my fault, you'd know how i felt. you ripped me to pieces, but i'd do it again and again for the way you looked at me. and talked when i wasn't listening. your goodnight before you fell into sleep. would you fall into me? if everything was different. what do you mean you don't know what i want? just ask me and your name will come out effortless. i drown in dreams of you every night. if only you knew you abolished my darkness with your light. if i didn't feel like it was all your fault, you'd know how i felt. you tore up my new days, replaced them with heartache. oh, the things you said to me and stared when i wasn't watching. your sleep well before you fell into sleep. could you fall into me if everything was different?

stand in my mind. it's empty but it's full. the letter hangs in my hand, ripped at the top a little. i printed out ten cents a page, i paid a dollar. the only sounds are the cars and the buttons on my collar. how does it feel to always have my attention? i stare at you longingly when you don't know? chin on my hand, you're a wonderful distraction sometimes. most times. excitement pours out of me, i try to contain why's it matter if they don't care? they'd say that anyway i printed out ten cents a page, not enough for color i only had a dollar. how does it feel to always have my attention? i smile in my mask at the thought of just you head in my hands, what a pathetic disraction but is it if i like it? say hi to me when you walk in the door. i can't tell how you feel which the expression you wore. i printed out ten cents a page, not enough for color. if only i had just one more dollar. how does it feel to always have my attention? i've been waiting for you, to see through all my desperate glares. i try to stop, it's an incapable distraction but it isn't, 'cause i like it. no, it isn't, and i like it. oh, it isn't, 'cause i like it.

you said "why can't you let go?" well i don't know. you told me you felt some way then the next day you said you don't know. i want nothing more, believe me, than to forget what you said. i want so much more, convince me it's not in my head. i wish we were better. but you told me you just said it to be nice. and now i feel nothing. gosh, i love it when you smile. look at her like that. i'm sure she'd love it too. what a beautiful fool. i want nothing more, retrace with me back where it sarted. please just be honest. are you really so bored that you find a thrill in girls who wish they'd care about anything else in the world? and i wish i liked her? not for better, just for worse. i could never imagine you coming through on a white horse. gosh, i love it when you smile. can we stay here for a while? forget about the reasons that we're such a thin line. how do i pretend? i don't wanna see an end. i hope it's the right thing as we cease to exist.

what would i ever say about it? our secret to keep. they don't know anything that is in your mind as you sleep. when the stars realign i'll know that... you. it's you. you... oh, you. meet me in pennsylvania at the rest stop by the bar. i'll look over with a smile. have i gone too far? i overthink too much about things i can't control. feel like i'm wasting away. so the moment it's right, lose sleep for me tonight and tomorrow we won't be far in your year old car. when the moon is full i'll know that... you. it's you. you... oh, you.

how am i gonna live? how can we coexist? i'm always trying to figure out whether it's your presence or your absence i wanna be without. why should i fall away? think i need more than this dragged out game. are you tired yet of what you do to me? is it happening 'cause you know i'll always let you in? i'm so afraid to tell you. afraid of how much you meant to me. i wouldn't have said hello if i knew i'd have to say goodbye. and it's not your fault but it's not mine. maybe it was right person, wrong time. or maybe the stars aren't meant to align. how can i be alone? i might've loved you, but we'll never know.

caught up in my head. do you know how it feels for you to pick her instead? despite all the times you swore it was there. i need to breathe. my mind is going crazy. crazy... and these thoughts won't leave.

i bet you're falling apart. i bet you're waiting for me to tell you that i miss you. i bet you wanna reject me. you wanna expose me for the supposed lies i've been telling. i'm caught up in circles. waiting for a miracle to happen. does love even happen? i'm chasing 'round your mind. not caught up to that red line. you crossed it, and i know you meant it. i bet you probably hate my guts now. i wouldn't move when you asked me to. it's the end of the world for you. i bet it's back in the same old place you've always been in. and i'm here, i'm here... am i really the one who can't let go? i'm caught up in circles. praying for a miracle to happen. but do i want it? i'm caught up in your mind. chasing that red line. you crossed it. did you mean it? i hope you find someone good. i hope you don't have to pretend to feel something when you don't. i bet sometimes you wish we worked out. in another lifetime i bet we would have been friends.

My tunneled vision is getting dimmer. Hope I make it in time for supper. She'll be making stew with her secret ingredient... she always told me I could never spill. Phone is ringing off the hook. Dad's out fishing with his. He'll be bragging that his perfect kids are gonna be like him someday. He always told me not to let people in. But if you told me to tell you the secret ingredient, I would do it in a heartbeat. If you told me I had to let you in, I would. You deserve it all, things I cannot give. You deserve it all, things I cannot give. Even though your life is an oxymoron.

Lawyer said you were in the wrong. You were guilty, and you'd been lying all along. Looking at me with tired eyes I lay every thought I've had down. Phone ringing through do not disturb. Calls go through either way. The silence begs for me to stay but I'm busy being a waste of space. You're giving me a look that could kill. Don't glare back, and I already know it will. You know, I always thought the worst of you while admiring the best. Convinced myself that was normal while you left me on read. You know I always saw the worst in you while you saw right through me. You know I always saw the worst in you while you saw right through me. You know I always saw the worst in you while you saw right through me. You know I always saw the worst in you while you saw nothing in me.

Every time he's in my head, I want to dent the wall with it. Pound in me someplace else, I beg. My head is killing. Complicate the things he says that breathe into me on the surface. Counting down the days till we're dead. So unfair that he's not here to breathe into me on the surface. Counting up the days I'm still Read. Every time he's in my head, I wish I were unconscious, I have nothing left to give. The secret's spilling. Exaggerate the things he says that grow into me on the surface. Counting down the days the world's gone. So before you're not here anymore, grow into me on the surface. Counting up the days I'm still Read. Every time he's in my head, I wish I were comfortably still. Fortunate soul, wish you were me. Know you will.

I'm fine. I'm okay. I still find words to say. You're still in every dream I have. I remember telling her it wouldn't last. I didn't know I'd be here now, still stuck in the past. I'm fine, I'm okay. I still find myself wanting to wait. You're still in every room I'm in. I remember telling her she'd get over it soon. I didn't konw I'd wonder if we were looking at the same moon. Are you fine? Are you okay? Maybe we'll meet again someday. And I'll show you every thought you're in.

If we become what we think about, how am I still me? Feel it all when you're in the room. I become something I don't want to be. You take my love and you sweep it away. Your rug has a mountain on it, always. Head up the graveyard stairs and I'm gone for good. If we become what we think about, how am I still me? Feel it all when you're in the room. I become something I don't want to be.

i'm sorry i always fixed my mind around you. that ache in my heart i mistook for good pulled me through. you called me selfish but you know that i said the truth. in the front of my bag all the loose papers ripped in the pocket. passive aggressive. never how i meant it. do you think i deserved it? don't say you care just to take it away. i was yours for a moment, i ruined to say i want everything you want to give me. i'm sorry i always built my mood around you. my tone wasn't nice if you weren't nice and that just wasn't right. but you called me baby, then you called me crazy. what was i supposed to do? in the front of the red one's a list that i made back when i didn't know what we were. you're still not on it 'cause i don't think i could begin to decipher your words. don't say you care just to take it away. my brain is all crowded of your fading face. and i wonder if you think of me. i wonder if you dream of me. i wonder if you talk to God about me. i could've loved you, i was so close that day. you were there for a moment, too scared to stay. i want everything you'll care to give me.

take my word for it. you were too blind to see. tell the truth for once. don't be selfish and you'll see. how am i supposed to know how it feels that you adore me? i can't take back what i said. but will i still be your only even if you're not mine?

All mine, leading me somewhere. Goodnight, leading me on. I sleep and dream of closure. I wake. I can never dream of lies. I stare; your shirt is red today. You wear your most deceiving apology. All evening, I try and come up with ways to let you down. All evening, you try and come up with ways to make me drown. All yours. The room has no walls and no floor. One week: a pure bore. I sleep and dream of comfort. I wake. I can never dream of lies. Even my deepest fears never dreamed of this. Not even in my worst year had I imagined this. All yours, leading you nowhere. Goodbye, leading me on.

What will I do when you're gone? Do I find someone else to smile upon? What will you do - break someone sooner? Find someone more innocent and so much newer? What would I do if you leave? Spend another year bathing in hopeless recovery? What would you say? They didn't hesitate to break you? How could you do this? I told you my secrets. What would I do if you leave? Spend another year drowning in hopeless recovery? What would you say - they didn't hesitate to burn you? How could you do this? You told me you were fine. What will I do if you're ever gone? Do I find someone else to cry upon? What will you do - break someone sooner? I'm sure there's someone more innocent and so much newer.

How do I say we'll all just fall away? Why would I stay? You'll just lie again anyway. Oh my word. How can you say that I broke you first? Oh my word. How could you say I was something to you when you made me nothing at all? How do I say statistics show you're bound to leave anyway? How do you crumble a person? How'd you manage? Oh my word. How can you say that you felt much more. How could you say I was something to you when you made me nothing at all? Deep down I know you're not what you seemed. But I'll have you know it would've been undying. Deep down I thought your heart was changing. I guess something so small wouldn't show. Deep down I know it's not what I saw. You weren't so careless with my heart. Deep down I hope you're not what you seemed. Were you really that careless with my heart? Oh my word. How can you call me something to you? I felt like nothing at all.

don't go away. i don't want you to stay. go away. i want you to stay. i wouldn't remember you asking me questions. i still don't remember you putting in effort. i wouldn't remember the feel of your sweater. i wouldn't remember the cold of her leather. i wouldn't remember the stars in your eyes. i wouldn't remember the presence of lies. i wouldn't remember you try to be distracting. i wouldn't remember this moment lasting... so just go away. wait, i want you to stay. now go away. no, i want you to stay. i don't remember fate proving real. i don't remember how you feel. i wouldn't remember the genuine smile you gave. i don't remember your false incandescence. i don't remember being seen in your absence. i don't remember you sharing your mind just 'cause you thought i would laugh. so go away. no, wait, i want you to stay. why can't you see? i want you with me? i need you away. of course, i want you to stay. just leave me be. i don't know how you can't see.

You always told me you wanted to meet just to leave me hanging alone in my seat. You acted cool, so I played the fool. And you never knew what the smallest change could do. Why wait? Why break? Why take all that I had left in me? Why hide? Why lie? Why dye my heart a color only you could see? So you could watch me fly in circles. So you could burn me right where you know it hurts. To leave no scars, you left no marks. Impossible start to a brain dead heart. Why did you do this to me? Why did you do this to me? To me? You never said how you really felt. Always topped off with sugar or only telling them. You were too cool, should've known I'd play the fool 'cause you never knew what the smallest change made me do. Why fall? Why stall? Why call me months after just to break me again? Why run? I had no one. Why stun time itself with a paralyzing grip from then? So you could watch me fly in circles. So you could cut me right where you know it hurts. To leave no marks, you left no scars. Impossible start to a brain dead heart. Why did you do this to me? Why did you do this to me? To me? Even after all this time I still can't tell what went wrong. Did something I say hit a little too close? Was it all in my head? Could've been my home. So you could watch me fly in circles. So you could kill me right where you said you'd never hurt. To leave no scars, you left no marks. Impossible start to a brain dead heart. Why did you do that to me? Why did you do that to me? Why did you do that to me? To me?

Maybe this was how it was meant to be. You to give me lessons, and me giving you peace only temporarily. The house that I am breaking now could've been yours, but how? You were always leaving me out of conversations with yourself. And wow, you want it now? They're singing "please just shut me out." Back then, when I was a friend: They're singing "please don't shut me out." Shut me out. In the depths of all my past fixations, you were there in the center acting proud. When the water filled my lungs, you were gone, which was enough. 'Cause it told me that you didn't mind letting me down. And wow, you want it now? You're singing, "don't you shut me out." Back then, when I was still a friend: You're singing "get over me now and shut me out." Shut me out. Shut me out.

I miss you. Did you know I love you? I know it'd odd, for our broken bond has yet to repair. Can we hold time? My palm's open. Don't leave me hanging now. Can we rewind? We paid the price. Drop my hand somewhere else. I can see through everything you do. I can relate to things that you hate.I can't survive. Without you, I die. Can we push time? My palm's moved on. Leave me hanging now. Don't you rewind. I paid the price. Drop my hand anywhere you want. I am not your puppet, I am not your friend. It's hard enough to fend for myself and dwell on the end. I am not your savior. I am not your pet who'll follow you like I did before until forever ends. I am not your carpet. I can't be your friend. It's sweet you think I love your guts, but I hate them. Take offense. I am not your darling. Not even acquainted. It's sick to think I led you when I didn't want revenge.