Hello World! Welcome to the Starring You Project. My name is Starla Mooney. I created this website to share the art I have long hidden that was never meant to be publicly available. My belief in that fact led to me being brutally honest in my works, often overly so. For as long as I can remember, I have loved to write. In the past, I had been gifted countless journals for my writing but ended up misplacing each one. I have lost poems and songs due to my carelessness. I wish I had access to what I wrote in the five years before I started keeping track of my art, but I do not.
It was doing me no good to continue like that. I collected all the poems in my scattered journals and put them together in one binder. I was hoping it would be harder to lose, and I was right. As for my songs, it became easier in my freshman year of high school, where I got a cell phone to keep all my writing in. Surely I wouldn't lose that, right? Well, my phone stopped working randomly around the end of the first semester, and I lost more of my writing. Fortunately, once I got a new one I never lost a work again.
I also created a binder for my songs. I printed out each one and wrote the details about each one. These binders became my most prized possessions. For the longest time, it did not cross my mind that I could lose these in a catastrophe out of my control. This website is a way to ensure I never lose my art, which has been the only constant in my life. If I ever lose it, what else will I do?
I do not know how to code, and I'm learning as I go. Hopefully, this website's look will improve, but even if it doesn't, it's okay. That is not what I exist for. Starring You is my personal passion project to share every song and poem I've ever written since I was 14. Even the ones I hate and wish didn't exist. For some frustrating reason, my amygdala won't let me rid them from my memory.
For many, words flow effortlessly off the tongue. There is little thought involved in conversation. It feels natural for them. For others, it can be difficult. I am one of them who has trouble naming and understanding my emotions. I had too many, and could not keep up with them all. The only way I knew how to express them was in rhyme. I could think about how I really felt and come up with the best possible way to describe it - so someone would finally understand.
Usually the way I write my music is by spontaneous inspiration. Sometimes music would play in my head, with lyrics or not, and I had to get it down before I forgot it. Songs have come to me in dreams, in a single lyric, and in titles.
What you are about to read is honest in a way that makes me extremely uncomfortable. The things they say may be true, but I do not have the energy to care and I never will. I just have a job to do. I have already had to do things that make me consider quitting altogether, such as downloading an app where every additional moment I spend with it makes my disdain for the human race even greater. An application where the only thing I see is LOOK AT ME! I HAVE WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR! People are fooled into thinking certain things matter.
To the people visiting I wrote about, you're welcome. I do not send you these words out of love, so do not be mistaken. It is most likely absolutely nothing, even though you have shaped who I'll be for the rest of my life. I wish I could erase you all, but some more than others.
More importantly, thank you. I could not have been so inventive if it wasn't for the pain I caused and was caused. Thank you for being so trusting as to let me in your life. I thank you for your naivety, as it allowed me to slip in and out of your presence without detection. With that, I introduce the STARRING YOU PROJECT!