If I were older? If I were better at guitar? If I started being what you want, would I get far? Every single voice in my chest is screaming don't you dare let this grow. But if I were older, would you like me? Would you glance my way at least? If I were hotter, would you want me? Would you ever want to know me? If I were smarter, would you like me? Would you say hello at least? If I were older, would you like me? Could you ever want to know me? If I wasn't his blood now, Would you have said something different? If I were anyone else at all, would you? Would you? Would you? If I were older, would you like me? Would you ask me something at least? If I were hotter, would you want me? Would you ever, could you ever? If I were smarter, would you like me?! And if he wasn't in the picture? If I were another, would you like me? Would you like me? Would you like me?

I hate the way you look at me and smile like you're not even nervous. (You know, you make me nervous) I hate the way you move your head when you're listening to my songs as if you like them. No, I don't like it. But I'll listen till I do as long as it's with you. You know I cannot stand it, but I'll watch until I can. As long as you take my hand. I hate the way you look at me when you think that I'm asleep. (You know I can see...) I hate the way you move your head to that specific song. And you will sing along. No, I don't like it, but I'll listen till I do, as long as it's with you. You know I cannot stand it, but I'll watch until I can as long as you take my hand. I have a vision of the sunlight on your face. No, I don't like it, but I'll listen till I do. As long as it's with you. As long as it's with you.

And you hold the door. My eyes beg for more. You should talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me. And you call my name. Say it again, I wasn't listening. Now just talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me. Pacing the floor, I'm tracing clouds with my eyes. Serenading a stranger with the loud thoughts in my mind. Talk to me. Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, talk to me. And say that you want more. "Mixed feelings" ??? Then what's it mean when I know for sure? 'Cause when you hold the door, I can't even tell you if I'm real. How is it you don't care at all how you make me feel?

New gaze. I'm watching, and you hang up your coat. Old habits die hard. And you are mine till I am gone. You smoke and light up. Not just in the literal sense, you know. And I am amazed someone like you could make me feel so strange. When I reach, you pull. Are you just making that one thing your excuse? You can say if there's not even one lifetime you'll want this.

You are the instinct in my gut. Light me up and I am gone. You are the golden in my house fire. Just one minute is 10 years long. You are the left path but I'll take it. One simple slip and I am gone. You are the good in my heartbreak. One day is a lightyear long. I can feel it in my chest, my suffocating breath. I have to know: Am I nothing? I can feel it in my throat. These insects that you own. I need to know: Am I nothing to you? You are the tempered glass I study. One inch to you and I am gone. You are the sickness in my cold. Seven days have never felt so long. I can feel it in my head, my inevitable end. I have to know: Am I nothing????? I can feel it in my throat. These insects that you throw. I need to know: Am I nothing? I am eaten alive. How'd I ever survive? I am thrown up and digested. I am eaten alive. How'd I ever survive? You're the thread that's embedded in my brain. You are rain. I can feel it in my chest, my suffocating breath. I need to know: Am I nothing? I can feel it in my throat, these insects that you own. I want to know: Am I nothing to you? You are the left path but I'm taking it.

I would throw stones at your window just to see your face even if you told me to go. I could replace you with the sun and they wouldn't break. I would say the dumbest thought there in my head just to see your mouth curl up in a grin, and I would take you far away so you could have a day just to exist. And I would be there, looking in your eyes, trying to fake surprise. I'd be breathing too heavy, wondering ig you can hear it beat. We could be anything you want, and we are nothing. I would love a full time job of just being near you, even if you told me to stop 'cause I never mind hearing your voice. I would be there, looking in your eyes, getting runner's high. I would be chasing that feeling, wondering if you can hear it beat. We could be anything you want, and we are nothing. I am attached to the string on your finger. It's cold, but your presence is warm. You make the sun feel like a match. Why don't you light it up? Tell me that you're sure we won't die tonight. I'm looking in your eyes, getting dizzy and bright. And I'm chasing your words back. And the way you didn't pull away. We could be anything you want. Yet we are nothing.

I could spend every dime in the world, and it still would not be enough. I know I'm just dramatic and bored, so how come when you look at me I"m completely floored? Take me in your arms and break me. Feed me to the wolves. 'Cause I know you know, and I'm still alone. I could spend all the money I've saved, and I still would come up short. I know I am a fool to crave. But I can't help, my head has you engraved. Take me in your arms and break me. Feed me to the wolves, 'cause I know you know, and I'm still alone. Shake me by the throat and hate me. Leave me to the leaves, 'cause I know you know, and I am alone. Take me in your arms and hold me, just so know what it's like to be wanted by you when it's her you could choose.

You drown me in the evening. You immerse me. I'm thinning. I swear I'm so close to revealing what you already know. You 'll hate me 'cause I know you like me. But I want you like she does too. I swear I'm so close to confessing what you already know. I almost give in once a day. I catch it and I run away, but now I'll say if you'll let me... You burn me when it's too much to try and pull away from me. It's crazy. Every day I want you more. And you stare at me, 'cause it was all in my head.

I am the rock that you pick up, then toss in blue with no luck. I am the note you want to skip. You keep it on to please your lips. And I would break my own arm for you. Over and over. Oh, I would take the other path for you. Over and over, over and over. I am the hope you strive to gain. You never win, it's only pain. I am the holes inside your socks. Seep through the night at all costs. And I would break my own legs for you. Over and over. Oh, I would take the wrong path, and I do over and over. Over and over. I am the fly inside your room. You swat it out but it breaks through. I am the moment after sex. The silence filled with loneliness. The plausible regretfullness. And I would break my own heart for you. Over and over again. Oh, I would hold my breath, and I do. Over and over, over and over. Over and over still. Over and over, over and over.

All this and I'm wondering what you're doing
Reading between the lines
You are the best day I have ever seen
What does it mean?

Is there a her I should be envying
'cause she has your eyes when she walks by?
Is there a life I could be yours?
Sinking deeper since you said no first
Is there a time you won't be in my head?
Am I destined for this? Does it ever end?
If I try to forget, I'll just end up wishing I was anybody else

Is it too blunt to say I want to be with you?
I don't care if it's late, just know that it's true
Is wanting you supposed to be this confusing
I don't care if it's late, just know that I do
I don't need an answer, I don't need a no way
I don't need a maybe, I just need you to know
I don't want an answer, I don't want a someday
I don't want a maybe, I just need you to know
Need you to know, need you to know, I need you to know

All this and I think of you once a day
'cause you never leave
You are the best day I ever want to have
What does it mean?

Is there a someone I should be envying?
'Cause they have your eyes when you walk by?
Is there a life I could be yours?
Sinking deeper since you said no first
Is there a time you won't be in my brain?
Am I destined for this? What do I have to gain?
If I want more, I am not a liar
But the feeling consumes, and I get so tired

Is it too honest to say I want to be with you?
I don't care if it's late, I don't care if it's true
Tell me, is wanting you supposed to be this confusing?
I don't care if you don't, just know that I do
I don't need an answer, I don't need a no way
I don't need a maybe, I just need you to know
I don't want an answer, I don't want a no way
I don't want a maybe, I need you to know
I need you to know, I need you to know, need you to know

All this, I'm still wondering what you're thinking
You never leave

I hate that I don't know what to say. I hate that I can barely think straight. I hate that I can't look at your face. You take my breath away and I, I just want to be called yours. I hate that I can't say what I want to. Don't want to risk if you don't feel it too. In time I know it'll be too much to hold it in enough, 'cause I, I just want to be called yours. There was one night I thought I might have a chance. You said I was funny and you didn't move your leg. You probably don't remember at all. But that was when I couldn't deny I was falling for you. I just want to be called yours. There was one night I thought I might have a chance. "What's not to love?" Did you say that to be a good friend? This wasn't in the plan. We talked till 3am, now I, I just want to be called yours. I hate that I don't know what to say. I hate that I can barely think straight. I hate that I can't look at your face. You take my breath away and I would do anything to be called yours.

How do you live if you don't know how to breathe? All you want is him, and you're not even in his dreams. How do you fall if you only ever fly? All you want is him, but he makes you want to die. Don't you give me that look. I will walk away. Don't you come any closer. Five inches from your face. How do you know he doesn't feel the same? You could stop letting it grow, it still won't go away. How does he make every thought into a mistake? How does he break bricks with his smile? Too much to fake. Don't you give me that look. You know I can't walk away. Don't you dare come any closer. Two inches from your face.

You don't understand how far I could walk. Bricks on my head, flowers in my hand, out of breath. You don't understand how long I could talk. They're just tired, but I can't stop. You're all I want. I feel every word you say to me. I keep secrets from my own diary. I don't need closure, just you here. Can you feel it too? You don't understand I haven't waited. I didn't know them, we weren't here, only what I created. You don't understand I'm going insane. Look away, please. I can't see anyone when you're with me. I feel every word you say to me. I keep secrets from my own diary. I don't need closure, just you here. Could you ever feel it too? You're all I want.

It's hard to look at you without wanting to bang my head against the wall
I can't shake this feeling out, and I'm kinda hoping you don't care at all
It's hard to touch you without my whole face looking like my favorite shirt
I can't shake this color out, and I don't know if that's better or worse

You look at me but say nothing
Keep looking down and I can't breathe
Not close enough, when you speak
Can you feel my heart skip beats?

It's hard to think of you without wanting to find a cliff and fall
I can't shake this feeling out, I scold myself for you being there at all
It's hard to be touched by you without my whole body looking like my favorite shirt
I can't shake this color out, and I can't tell if it's becoming worse

You look at me but say nothing
I look down and I can't breathe
Not close enough, when you speak
Can you feel my heart skip beats?

You look at me but say nothing
We look down, oh, can you breathe?
Not close enough, when we speak
Want to feel your heart on me

It's unlikely I can look at you without wanting to bang my head against the wall
I can't shake this feeling out; do you even care at all?

You're my deepest fear and my deepest desire. Your hands are nothing if not fire. I don't think that I would be a fool. Darling, the way you look at me's so cruel. Take my hand or leave me frozen. Feel my pulse; you cut me open. And if I could let you go, don't you think that you would know? You're my shortest hello and my longest goodbye. Your words stay in my head and I don't know why. I don't think that I would play the fool. Darling, the way you speak to me is so cruel. You're my favorite dream and my haunting nightmare. You must wake at midnight and say the faux prayer. I don't think that I would play the fool. Darling, the way you hold me is so cruel. Take my hand or leave me frozen. Heal me when you carve me open. Leave me be or dare to show it. Look at me when I'm not golden. And if I could make your day, don't you think that I would stay? And if I could let you go, don't you think that you would know?

I don't wanna say I miss you but I do. I'm afraid you will run too soon. I don't say when I think of you, but I want to. You'd never hear the end of it, would you? I miss your touch, I miss your laugh. I miss your eyes on me while I am looking past. I miss your voice. Even more, your words. I wish that I could tell you how much that it hurts. I don't wanna say what I think of you, but I think you know it. She said that I make it so obvious. I don't wanna say how long time feels without you. What if you don't feel that too? I miss your care and your calm. I miss your how are you? I miss the comfortable silence and the uncomfortable too. I miss thetaking time the granted. Then regretting I didn't take the chance to be closer to you. I miss the way you say my name and your reaction when you listen like you'd ever willingly in your life. I miss our thousand goodbyes. And how they tease and tell me you feel the same. But how can they know? I miss your head on my shoulder. I miss the way you love the dark. I miss every stupid little thing that makes you who you are. I miss the way you are brighter than any sun I've ever seen. I miss the way a simple glance will make me weak in the knees. And I don't wanna say I miss you, but how can I hold in that fact? When without you I stay counting down the seconds till you're back. How can I know? I don't wanna say I miss you but I do. I'm afraid you'll say goodbye like you want to. I don't say when I think of you, but if I did, you'd never hear the end of it. I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you

I swear my heart's outside my body
I can't breathe
What do your dead eyes tell me?
Was I bound to make this fall?
Could I pretend I feel nothing at all?

If you need me to I'll get closer
I would hide you from the cold till it's over
if you called my name I would teleport
But I would walk a mile under and over
Once again, does my heart deceive me?
I can't think
What do your natured eyes tell me?
Was I bound to make it out alive?
Could I prevent it without faking that smile?

If you need me to I'll get closer
I would hide you from the hail till it's over
If you called my name I would teleport
But I would walk ten miles under and over

I remember the way you stared
I can't see them
What do your static eyes tell me?
Was I bound to make this fall?
Could I have prevented if you didn't smile?
Can I prevent it if I go for a while?

If you need me to I'll move further
I would hide you from my monsters till they're here no longer
If you called my name, I would teleport
I would walk a marathon under and over

There's no time
I'm losing my mind
There's no time
You hold my mind

How could I ever believe you could like someone like me? I'm in touch with my emotions. But you'll never know, near you my heart's an explosion. Hold me close and leave

back to that friday when you put my bin on the shelf. you probably don't remember when you spoke up for me as i melt. back to the thursday when she told me it was nothing. i wish i never told you, but you said i was making it worse. how come that happened either way? yet you still come and take my breath away. overthinking every word you say. everything you do, you're always on my mind. wasting seconds i'd be standing in line. i can't be her, just around when it's convenient. how dare you come and take my breath away. they're disappearing again like those days. no matter what i do, you're still in my dreams. no matter what you say, you're never quite what you seem. say to me what you're saying to them. i never even get to know. say to me a genuine apology. but i don't want it if you don't mean it too. all you do is take my breath away. over and over in every single word you say. lost in your eyes again. the feeling i get is bent a little. but i still... you know.

If you really feel the way you say you do, why am I sitting here waiting for a call from you? I could be anywhere, I could be anywhere, but I wanna be right next to you. Just leave me be. I know you want to. I thought it was all in my head till I pinched myself and then you said You're so beautiful. I could've died right then, I swear. I thought you were messing with my head till you asked me a question I'd never heard and I said Of course. The look on your face... that was it for me for sure. If you really feel the way you say you do, why am I sitting here waiting for a call from you? I could be anywhere, I could be anywhere, but I wanna be right next to you. Leave me be; I know you want to. Let me go, I won't be bitter. Let me know if you want better. You said I won't scare you off. Well, where are you? Where are you? Let me go, I won't be bitter. You can tell the truth, it's better. You said that you missed me. Well, now where are you? Where are you? If you really feel the way you say you do, why am I sitting here waiting for you? I could be anywhere, I could be anywhere... I always wanna be right next to you. Let me go... I know you want to.

How could I long for more when you treat me like a paper crane? And how will I go back home when your staring cuts through half my brain? I wish that I could lie to your face. But I can't look at your without being in this state. I can't hear you. I count the colors in your eyes while my tongue dies. You touch me without touching me, and I can't breathe. How? How? How? How could Ilong for more when you treat me like a stranger's drink? How will I go easily when you never told me what you mean. I wish that I could lie in your arms. But I can't go near without feeling more. I can't see me. Do I even exist? as I watch your lips. You cut so deep without knowing me. Is it a sign? I can't hear them. It's just you and me in this crowded room. I don't hear them. It's only you. It's only you.

I hold so dear the way that you feel. But I need to hurt and I'm so scared I will. What is the meaning of what I inspire? Does your heart die? Are you on fire? I do not fear the way that you feel. But I have been hurt, and I'm so scared I will. What is the meaning; your absence of words. The English language was meant to be heard. Oh, I'll leave this behind. I can feel it, you're already mine. I don't want any other sun. We've begun. I hold so dear the way that you think. Don't you lie about the important things. What is the meaning of saying my name? Do they know much of my heart set aflame? I am too sick to not say what I mean. Truth is my friend, but her heart is so green. What is the meaning of staring me down? Do you see the flaws? Are you faking now? Oh, I'll leave this behind. I can feel it; you're already mine. I don't want any other sun. We've begun.

You speak so kind to me. I'm too afraid I might be falling. You hold me like I might run away. Darling, I don't want anyone more to stay. You stare so bright at me. I get this feeling I might be dying. But I need more. Tell me, what for? I keep score. What do you take me for? I would rewind if I could. I'm so afraid I'll be back where I once stood. You must want to take your time. Darling, I'll be yours if you'll be all mine. But I need more. Tell me, what for? And I keep score. What do you take me for? An amateur? Darling, let me be yours, and be all mine. I wanna be stuck inside your mind. Darling, let me be yours, and be all mine. I wanna be stuck forever inside your mind.

Does it ever get easier, ignoring all the red hidden under gold? It's getting so old. Does it ever get easier, the nervous pacing, I took that for granted. I want it. But in the night, I'll see a light calling. Am I stalling? Does it ever get easier, the waiting for you to notice something different? It should be obvious. Does it ever get easier, the giving in 'cause I don't want you to leave me. But you never see. Oh, in the day, a voice swears I'm denying that I'm breaking. Am I faking? I don't wanna live like this. I wanna toss my sorrows in the great abyss, but I can't. Oh, I can't. I don't wanna be your friend. I wanna hold you close until the end, but I can't. Oh, I can't. In the night, you'll say you want something and I will cut a piece of me. In the day, you'll say that you miss me, but what is it? I know what you miss. I don't wanna live like this. I wanna toss your sorrows in the great abyss, but I can't. You know I can't. I don't wanna be your friend. I wanna steal your soul and wear it on my neck, but I can't. Let me in! I don't wanna live again, unattached from your skin. My one, I'm done. I don't wanna be prepared. I wanna run my fingers through your hair, but we can't. You know we can't. I don't wanna be your friend, but I'd rather die than hurt again, so I can't. Tell me why I can.

All the things you did... What was I meant to do? Should you have expected me to refuse? To deny you while you taught me languages? A side of me I thought would never be born. You brought me to life, so can you blame me if you're adored? No, you don't get it. I don't think you do. You failed the easiest question: Is it me for you? Is it me for you? Could you ever want me too? I won't ever make you blue. You can kill me if I ever try to."You'd think you would find a book by now, anything to say. How are you keeping me around when it's just like an interview? No, you don't get it. I don't think you do. You failed the easiest question: Is it me for you? Is it me for you? Could you ever want me too? I won't ever make you cry. You can kill me if I ever try. What was I meant to do? Should I have refused? Denied you while you taught me a secret language to speak with you? I do love him! God, what is it you keep sending me? What's the lesson? Just to ruin what she left of me? No, you don't get it. I don't think you do. You failed the easiest question: Is it me for you? Is it me for you? Could you ever want me too? I won't ever make you cry. You can kill me if I ever try.

I will take the liberty, hide behind metaphors. You should know what I mean; heart on my sleeve. Oh, I know now I must live with you being ungrateful. Go ahead, lie and say this is what they call faithful. The waiting feels like hell. Complaining, it just fell. Always seems to end when you're around. What is the rule for what we say? Too late to behave. Did you say I'm kind? I love you. I'll be fine. I will tie the distance with a gold ribbon. You should know what I want; I say it all the time. Oh, I know now I must suffer you draped on the awning. Go ahead, lie and say this is what they call trying. The wanting feels like hell. Lately it just fell. Always seems to end when you're gone. What is the rule for when we fly? Too much to goodbye. Did you say you're mine? I love you. I'll be fine. I know it's all too much for you to remember, but I think it's so clever that they could tell the truth. I didn't like it, I didn't like it, I didn't like it, I didn't like it, I didn't like it, I didn't like it, I didn't like it, I didn't like it. The sinking feels like nothing. I want to feel something. Never seems to end when you're around. What is the rule for when we drink? I don't care what you think. Wait, did you say you cried? I love you. Never mind.

i could take pictures of sunsets. i could watch the moon as it rotates. but nothing does compare to your sweet face. i could take on the waves. i could jump and you'd be saved. i can't help but hurry. i don't want you to worry. i can't see anyone when you're with me. i would cry if you say goodbye. baby, don't lie. my valentine, valentine. i could hide by myself every time, and i could walk alone every night. but i wouldn't feel safe without you by my side. we could go nowhere to nowhere. we could blow off our lives and die there. but i forget that they exist sometimes. i can't see anyone when you're with me. i would cry if you say goodbye. baby, don't lie. my valentine, valentine.

i wish you could know. too late to let go. i could never show it. i wish you could see what you mean to me. i would never stray. i wish i could stain every thought in your brain. loved you first, i know it. i wish i could see what you think of me. i know, i'd never stray.

I can remember you and me bracing ourselves for the unknown uncertainty. I won't, I won't, I won't live one more second with you out of my head. I can't, I can't, I can't survive another second with you by my side. I won't, I won't, I won't live one more second with you in my head. I can't, I can't, I can't survive another second without you by my side.

I'm such a follower I don't even know where home is, and I'm so angry I could burn one. I'm too much a coward to admit what is true, and I'm trying to hold on to only you. But you look at me like I'm your prey, and if I don't escape soon I'll be dead. Someone will present me on a silver tray. Two minutes later all that's left will be too late. I'm such a follower I can't even see my leader, and I'm so lost though I'm behind you. And I'm too much a coward to admit what is true, and I'm trying to hold on for only you. Oh, you look at me like I'm your prey. And if I don't say goodbye I'll be dead. Someone will present me on a silver tray. One minute later all that's left will be too late.

march 1994. we were at a party, i don't know what for. i thought you leaned in to kiss me, but you left me there hanging and wanting more. way back, 1995. we wanted alone time. we had to sneak and hide. i thought that i was dreaming. you said i hope we get married. i could've died. april: we were at your prom, dropped off by your mom. i thought you looked embarrassed. you leaned in to kiss me, my reflex left you hanging. i know you were embarrassed. august 1995. i dropped out to stay here. you haven't asked me why. but you leaned in to greet me, and said that i look lovely. it never left my mind. i know somehow you'll take me down. i know someday you'll grieve it like i did. march 1994. we were at a party, i don't know what for. i thought you leaned in to kiss me. i had to leave you hanging. know you wanted more. i thought that you would leave me if i said i wasn't ready, but that made me want more.

if you think anything of me at all, how can you be so fine making me feel so small? you were right there in my generous disarm. i made you safe for others to touch. i never did get that heartfelt card and my gut still holds a grudge. do i misjudge you? are you kind on the inside? do you find joy where you smoke? what about where i go? what about me? if you feel anything for me at least, what are we? star crossed lovers? what makes you complete if not me? when i leave i will still wish you well. but my soul? stuck smothered in your smell. you can dance around the point all your life. don't you be scared, i'm too much to leave. i never did get those words, so wise. how would i know better? do i misjudge you? do you care deep down? do you swear time wasn't stretched out? if you think anything of me at all, how are you so fine making me so small? you were right thee in the space that i own. i made it safe for others to speak. though i never got that heartfelt card your voice still makes me weak. when i leave i will still wish you well. but my soul? stuck smothered in your smell. you can beat around the bush all your life. don't you be scared. i don't want to leave. i never did hear those words; so wise. oh, was i supposed to leave? do i misjudge you? don't you want to take me home? can i not trust you? what do you carry that makes you glow? if you think even a little bit, how can you accept but you can't admit? if you feel anything for me at least, how are you so fine ceasing to show me? if you think of me at all, why is there a wall?

I know you know I'm trying. I've shown you countless times. The way you talk to me now makes me feel just fine. I know you know I sent it. I see it right on your screen. You say you love me, baby, but I don't know what you mean. Am I your heart? Am I your light? Am I your soul? Am I your sight? Am I your home? Am I your sight? Am I the song that will breathe you back to life? Maybe it shouldn't go this far. Well, perhaps this shouldn't make you hard. I know you know I'm hesitating. I think for hours on end. Maybe if this wasn't addictive, I would be your friend. Am I your cot? Am I your path? Am I your coin? Am I your bath? 'Cause you are the heart that I hold. So delicate. I don't want to kill it, but look at that shine. And you are the light that I follow. You are the coin I pick up. You are the path that I let myself on. And you are my knight in armor. You are the soul that I long for. The sight I wear on my eyelids. You are the bath that I sink in, and wash me clean. I will not bleat. I would trade all I gave for you to see me, but how you did in the old days. I know you know I need you. You know I'll never leave your side. The way you talk to me now makes me think you're blind. I know you know I'm right here. Do you just not want to see? You say you love me, babe. I must be blind; what does that mean?g

Didn't I tell you you would lose if I were told you refused to choose? Didn't I tell you this would break if one more chance: what you used to fake? Didn't I say, every day, I want to be home. Oh, I know. You didn't let me cry. Looked away when you said goodbye. But you let me die. Sat there and let me die. Didn't I tell you: I mean no harm, but my soul died right within your arm. Didn't I tell you exactly what I mean? You can't read my mind? Well, what is it that you get from me? Didn't I say, every day, please just take me home! Oh, I know you didn't let me cry. Looked away when you said goodbye. But you let me die. Sat there, let me die.

You say that you don't want me to leave. But then your argument is that you love me. I wonder if she'd be disappointed if she saw this. I never dreamed I'd end up like th is if I'm honest. You swear that you don't want me to sway. But you can't give me a reason to stay. Do you wonder if she'd be deep in a fit if she saw this? You treat me fine, but you can't explain why you want it. But I will put up zero fight. Question once or twice while you hold me so tight I'm not sure I'm breathing. After all, I am yours. And now we'll be going home. You say that you wish I was there with you now. But when I am, you can't wait to get your dirty hands on my blouse. Do you wonder if she'd be revving her fists if she was here. You treat me so badly, I can't tell if you even see me. I will put up zero fight. Question once or five times while you hold me tighter I'm not so sure I'm breathing. After all, I am yours. And now we'll be going home. I would put up quite a fight if I wasn't scared I'd die. 'Cause when you hold me tight I'm not so sure I'm breathing. But after al I've endured it's not worth the piercing you feel first. After all...

i don't know what it means if i feel so unclean. that may not seem like much when you think he's a crutch. don't ask me what i feel. you know i will never heal. except you may not tell there's only life then hell. phone is rining off the bed. i own the floor and it said you don't have to bear, the door is right over there. i don't know what i feel. nothing you do is real. can i be him, please? you talk with so much ease. i don't know what you mean. you say you'd marry me. is your wife your throne? didn't you want to be alone? don't ask me what i mean, saying i feel so unclean. is it all my fault? i ruined what i bought. i can't help but stare. how do i know you're really there? can i be him, please? i'm never off my knees. i don't know what you mean. you don't want all of me? is it all my fault you're not proud at all? i don't know what to do. i can only pray for you, that you will someday see what you feel for me. i need just one more thing. when i fly, everyone i ring - do you notice it's just you? i wonder if you knew. i wonder if you knew. is it me for you? i know that you can't stay. but will you anyway? i don't know what i did. to make you think i deserve this. i will always forgive. but now i can never win.

I am a piece of paper, and you are a rock. But you defeat me in the wringer. And I cannot... Every song, every feeling brought along. When I look inside your head, where am I but miles ahead? The spam; you don't wonder where I am. When I peer around your walls, you stand high but I'm so small. I am a piece of paper, and you are a rock. But you defeat me in anger, and I cannot... Every tear; you don't even know what I fear. When I peek under your stare, what will I find hiding there? The voice; there's no way it's just noise. When I research what you mean, how'll I know what to believe? I am a pair of scissors. I cut you into a snowflake. But you detest me, I figure, so I will rot away. Every seal and steal; it's only me asking what you feel. When I hold you in my arms, where are we but miles apart? Your skin; mine's the home you're meant to live. When I sink down on my knees, who are you to murder me? My one; queen's quest is never done. Then your insincerity; held up by my family. I am a piece of paper. Will you be my rock? When you defeat me in the wringer, will you help me up?

How could you let this happen? God, I swore I would be true. And I never lied, just thought I could survive with the outline of hell fading into view. I don't wanna live like this, just staying with him because he reminds me of you. I can't stay like this. Living in silence, wishing it was him over you. Watch me fly so high. Tell him and Him what I can do. I know he knows what he's done to me soul. See the afterlife outline fading into view. Am I harsh? No, really. How can you be so cruel now? Believe me when I say he doesn't know when or how. I don't wanna live like this. Staying with him 'cause he's got memories of you. I can't stay like this, living in silence praying for him over you. Watch me fly so high. Tell Him and him what I can do. I know he knows what he's doing to my soul. I hear I love you but how is that true? Am I harsh? No, really? How can you be so cruel now? Believe me when I say he'll never know when or how.

can't you see what i see, baby? i'd kill to know what you think of me. but you never wanna fight. you act like my old gemini. can't you tell when i can, baby? to you, everything's so unfazing. why you never wanna fight? i'll treat you like my old gemini. she'll be patient. when the destination is heaven. she'll sleep well, only with her wish when it's granted. they'll call the enemy, and pay a dime to get their lover on the run. he says he's crazy. but all i've seen are bruises onto bone. can't you see what i see, baby? i'd kill to know what you think of me. but you never wanna cry. you had that so unlike. can't you tell what i can, baby? everything is so unfazing. why you never wanna cry? i'll treat you bad, hope it works this time.

tell me why i have to go. if you don't know, well, i can tell you. tell me why i'm walking out with someone else now to someone else's house. 'cause i don't know how. i don't know how. it was over the second you said my name. if we were older, maybe we'd have stayed the same. i held on too long. you held on too loose. i should've seen this coming when you said "love you." tell me why i have to go. if you don't know, i guess i can tell you. tell me why i'm walking out with someone else now to someone else's house. tell me why i have to go. if you don't know, well, you're on your own. tell me why i'm walking out by myself now. i'm by myself now and i don't know how. do you know how?

Do you hear me like I read you? Do you miss me like I crave you? Do you hover like I follow? Do you holler like I swallow? Am I something like you're everything? Is this real life? Were you fantasy? Do you touch me like I can heal you? Do you love me like I see you? Like I see you?

Hand on my skirt. Is that all I'm worth? Breath of fresh air, you can find it there. But I could love you so. Hand on my heart. You rip it apart. Piece by piece, you killed me, but I can love you so. Mark by mark, you vandalized my heart. Piece by piece, you wore me. But how I love you so. What do you want? I'm busy moving on. Breath of fresh air, you can find it here. Oh, how I love you so. How I loved you so.