I feel inadequate with this life I chose
While you send me phrases so right on the nose
CDs I built break down faster now they're made of gold
I feel indignation for the frog in my throat
It just wants its own habitat; how can I be so cold?
Treaties I signed make for quite a good fiction novel

And honestly, I'm only eyes, ears, and body
I inadvertently live alone in my mind, so sloppy
I feel your judgment in my femur so stop me
Before it gets bloody

I feel I'm insufficient if you don't call my name
While you leave the back door open but I try not to blame
Motions, oceans, notions, I'm just walking through
Like the Red Sea
I have no justification for the brains I can't stand
You're all goop in my eyes and I scoop it by hand
Loathing decomposing, good thing I don't need a backup plan

And relentlessly I'm onto you and your weight so heavy
I wisely fracture my shoulders and lift them off my back so nimbly
I feel your judgment in my humerus
Stop me before it gets bloody

I can't shake this now
She won't make it now
Check if she's seething
No, check if she's breathing
One in and one out
She's entered downstairs now
Check if she's seething
Now check if she's breathing

Honestly, I'm only a hovering nonentity
I deliberately live alone and no one disturbs me
I feel your judgment in my whole entire body
Please stop me before I get bloody

Before I get bloody

In the eyes of God I try and fail to die
He knows my mind, that I only lie
He is no ally; it's all I dream
My mind is filling up inside

In the hands of God I'm judged
Have you put me through enough?
Guess not
This life is yours after all you've done

In the ears of God I'll deliver death
Think of what they said
And replace the heads of sinners

In the nose of God he smells metallic
Just for fun, the malic
I am no ally; it's all I think
I only fantasize
He thinks I won't try

In the mouth of God he tastes my fright
You think I won't try?
My lungs are so fried
I have nothing to lose
Watch me die

What am I now?
A wet set of bones leaking where I walk?
I can't talk when they talk to me
Where do I go?
My lonesome home base that only knocks me out?
I won't shout 'cause they never hear me anyway

All my days I've lived in this recurring dream
Where my life is a nonfiction movie and they are the scene
Parting the sea that I walk through
He is the villian
The one who pushed me off that cliff
To swim with the fish

How can I bear
When the whole world is happening right over there?
And I tried to join them but the dome
Keeps them out of harm's way
How can I guess what my future holds
When my mind won't rest
And I try to resist
But I can't keep them out of harm's way

What am I now?
A zombie they made in their lab
Craving the brains of the innocent?
I can smell it as if I have it

How can I bear
When the whole world is happening right over there?
And I tried to join them but the dome
Keeps them out of harm's way
How can I guess what my future holds
When my mind won't rest?
And I try to resist
But I can't keep them out of harm's way

What am I now?
A malfunction to fix?
Just three numbers on a screen?
Your machine to use as you'll please
All my life I've been underwater
Where I'm used to the way I can't breathe
When they are the taunter

How can I bear
When the whole world is whispering under my tail?
And I try to ignore but they're loud
It puts them into harm's way
How can you guess what your future holds?
Well, I know it best
I won't try to resist
'Cause I can't keep them out of harm's way

There stands Mum and her daughter
At a bus stop waiting for her untrained father
"Ellis" I hear Mum call her
"Selfish"
I hear a shout that saves it from escalation
They say they'll go on vacation
Not if I can help it
Who will stop me now?

Man plans, and I laugh
Oh, I laugh
Tan van, and I buy
Oh, they cry

I'm in line at the bank
I see him complain
"It's a mistake, you underpaid"
He yells he will come back later
Sue you for the danger
Not if I have a say in it
Who's gonna stop me now?

Man plans, and I laugh
Oh, do I laugh
Tan van, which I buy
Oh, I watch him cry

And they don't know their fate
Truly, who's to say
They all call it hate
I argue I'm a saint
They suffer from their ways
From his orders, I can't escape

Man plans, and I laugh
Oh, I laugh
Cider trailer, hidden layer
And he whines when I snap his spine
Man plans, and I'll laugh
When I saw him in half
Man plans, and then they die
Oh, I watch them die

Do you remember everything you've run?
All of the bad thoughts, everyone you've undone?
And as you grow older, you forget
Yes, it makes you human, but I never forgive

Just close your eyes and imagine
It's not your body you're inside while you are flattened
Pretend you like it, and it will feel just fine
And remember this is what you deserve

Did you erase when those summers you made history
With your excuses and false flattery?
Well, as you grow older, you block it out
Know it makes you human, but I can't help but doubt

Just close your eyes and imagine
It's not your body you're inside while you are branded
Pretend you like it, and it will feel just fine
And remember this is what you deserve
What you deserve
What you deserve

Do you think you're good and you've just made mistakes?
Now admit you're wrong for the innocents' sake
No one can think of a time when you were worthy
So you'll understand I won't give you mercy

Open your eyes and embrace it
You can't feel pain if you lie and say you like it
Pretend you're unbending, and it will be just fine
But remember this is what you deserve
And remember this is what you deserve
Remember this is what you deserve
What you deserve
What you deserve

I have a dream I walk into the morgue
I scream. They sit up, all 51 corpses
One has a knife plunged into his heart
It was his wife, I swear
Next to him, an undead woman lies
She's in my face now; this must be my demise
She yells, "What are you doing here?
This is our house you broke down"

And in the morgue I see you here
I can't believe I did it (What have I done?)
Now there's no going back, I fear
There's no way I would do this (What have I done?)

Last night, I had the dream again
But when they sat up it was only men
They came running and I froze
Oh, no
There's nowhere to go, they know
I turn around and there stands Jack
He's got nine straight nails in his neck
He gets close, says, "What are you doing?
This is our house, you get out"

And in the morgue I see you here
I can't believe I did it (What have I done?)
Now there's no time travel, I fear
I don't believe I did this (What have I done?)

They're all together now, chasing after me
They've been plotting their revenge
I'm backed into a cliff, but I'm better than them
I push them over the edge
Now there'll be no more haunting me at night
I got rid once and for all
I go to sleep again, but I see them
Towering over me, I bawl

And in the morgue I see you here
What was I thinking? (What have I done?)
But there's no rewinding time, I fear
I can't believe I did it (What have I done?)
What have I done?
What have I done?

I love the way you open the car door
And leave it unspoken
I love the way you say I look better than a bride
My heart is stolen

Oh, and you pull me in
Lead me to your home as you stare at my lips
Oh, and with a grin on your face
One more door you open
This one to your place

Oh, no, it was a trap
I'm tripping on the faulty wire
Fire is coming back
Oh, no, oh, no, am I intact?
A tick, tick, tick
And I'm never coming back

I love the way she trusts me so soon
Easier to dupe
I love the way she lets me hit her right away
She says she likes it

Oh, and I pull her in
Lead her to my home as I stare at her lips
Oh, and it's so unknown to her
What I'm gonna do once I get her alone

Oh, yes, it was a trap
I trip her on the faulty wire
Fire is coming back
Oh, no, oh, yes, am I intact?
A tick, tick, tick
And she's never coming back

I love the way she lies on the table
For my direction, wait here
I live for the way she squirms when she's able
For your ejection, wait here
Oh, I hear your pleas to "please
Don't hurt me, go easy on my knees"
I say "No, you're nothing in my arms"
While I cook your heart

Oh, no, it was a trap
I tip my waiter after dinner
Dimmer now, fire's inching back
Oh, yes, no, yes, am I intact?
A tick, tick, tick
And she's never coming back
Never coming back

Why fight?
All of this is still a lie
Why play?
There'll always be a loser to blame
Why die?
It's not like we are going anywhere better

Who says everything comes to an end?
The King with all the bad and good he brings
He says I will never amount to anything
Except hurting anyone I can get

So weak
I feel guilty after everything I eat
Who released my admission to the priest I meet?
Left feet; walking with no destination in this withering weather

Who says money can't buy happiness?
I confess, mine costs a grand at best
Enough, you know I can call your bluff
You mutt. Fine, I'll fight if you unlock my cuffs
He says I will never amount to anything
Except hurting anyone I can get, I can get

Who fell and made you King?
I jest; I know you were at the beginning
Can you blame me? I'm stuck here all eternity
Your fame is what got me inthe first place

Who calls what is fine and what is wrong?
You win my submission and my will to live
I'll never amount to anything
Except hurting anyone you will give
You will give

Shut up and take it
I know you won't make it
But that's okay
You said my name
And now I can't shake it
You sounded like her for a second
And I wanted to end you right then

Shut up and take it
Don't close your eyes
I want to watch you when you witness your demise
Won't ask you to beg for it
You should know by now
Unless you want it bad
I suggest you make me proud

Shut up and take it
Shut up and take it

Shut up and take it
Not so quiet, are you now?
Shut up and take it
Like your father taught you how

Shut up and take it
Shut up and take it
Shut up and take it
Shut up and take it
Shut up and take it
Shut up and take it
Shut up and take it

And I've tried all my life I could fly but I know I'd die What do you think I write songs about? How much I'm glad to be alive? How can I when all my days are filled with shaking aching voids and I hear his voice? My ears, they don't stop ringing How will I ever stop him winning? There's no other choice but to be complicit I never dreamed I'd be his accomplice And I fear I'll never make it out Alive in a world of hides And I bide all my time All my hands are tied What would you say if I told you this? While you babbled I was thinking about how to get away with it I don't remember what song Do you know? All my friends are faux The rain, it won't stop pouring Brain sucked in by the Son of the Morning I can't face this, I'm complcit I never dreamed I'd be his accomplice And I fear I'll never be the same Again he fills me with dread Calls me for another crime I can't refuse it What would you say if I brought you in? Saidm "I just made a mistake" And that I can't take it back There's no fixing this broken machine My pain, it won't stop exploring my veins and mind, my bones and organs I can't take it, I'm complicit I never dreamed I'd be his accomplice My hate, it won't stop growing Brain caved in like the sun in the morning I just can't take it They were right It only takes one time

It's a terrible life

If you look in my eyes

I will not have mercy

And neither will the flies



It's a terrible day for you

Does your love know where you are?

I hope your last words were I hate you

And you think you're gonna get 'em back

But it's not true



When everything goes right

One day doesn't mean your life

And I will stand here proving

I know you can't help doubting

I'll squeeze until you see the light



It's a terrible night for you

Hope it slipped your mind to say goodbye

I will not be convinced

You will ever deserve to live



It's a terrible morning for them

All their eyes will be pouring

And then they'll spend eternity mourning

And they hope they're gonna get you back

But it's not important



When everything goes dark

Remember light's not too far

You will get through this

You'll be alright

Oh, I take that back

But you might



It's a terrible life for you

Please don't look in my eyes

Know I don't want to do this

But there's a voice saying if I don't

I'll be the one who dies

They all said, they all said It's impossible to stop once you start painting red But I don't plan on stopping Until I am dead Her hair falls flat And she's wearing all black Bet she thought she'd be invisible, now she'll think back To a time when she wore a coat of many colors She'd say, "maybe he'd notice me less" And she said, "Why are you doing this?" Because I can, and I will I'll rip your face to shreds I can feel your heart beat, beat Beat, beating in my chest Yes I can, so I will, and your face goes blue I'm already bored of you Because I can They all say, they all say It's impossible to change once you can't be convinced If your mind is your own, there's nothing they can do But leave or believe you I can change, but I don't wanna go back To the way it was before, to a self awareness lack To a time when she wore a coat of mamy colors Now says "maybe he'd notice me less" And says, "why are you doing this?" Because I can, and I will Wreck your house to make a scene They won't know the truth about it, they won't know anything Yes, I can, so I will Watch your face go blue I'm already bored of you Because I can, I can, I can I take all her pain away All her memoirs, her mornings Her memories of mourning They say I have nothing to gain But she has thirty dollars in her pocket Because I can, and I will Make sure they have none to grieve You will never find her body in the waves of the sea Oh, I can, so I will Watch her face sink in the blue "How are you doing this? How are you?" Because I can, I can Because I can, I can Because I can, I can, I can, I can, I can

This aching in my heart is deeper than you think
I've tried to satisfy it but I don't feel anything
Do you wonder, 'cause I wonder
What's gonna happen to me in the ending
I can't deny, my destiny lies
You will know me

I just want to feel better
Is that so wrong?
So what I don't give them a fair shot?
My mind's been tortured for so long

You will know me when you see my name
On the front page paper
You will know me when they go body hunting
And they find my anchor
You will know me when they search my room
And find the reason
We were doomed from the start so we must get even

This breaking in my soul is more visible to me
Can you see me sitting down and writing the words that I mean?
Do you falter at the alter like me?
It's my father that needs to know
He will know me

I just want to feel better
Is that so bad?
So what if they can't defend themselves?
When they stop trying I'm glad

You will know me when they see the tongues
Have been ripped out of their mouths
You will know me 'cause they didn't see warnings
With the cat or the mouse
You will know me when they search my room
And find my collection
We were doomed from the start so we deserve endless attention

The days of running are finally coming tonight
Oh, I've waited for years in my bed of disaster and strife
I can escape the feeling if I do this right
Just one step in the direction of you
And everything will be fine

You will know me when you read my fiction
And realize it's not
You will know me when you find my addiction
To destroying the lot
You will know me when you see my appearance
In a transparent box
On a screen, in your house
I was doomed from the start
So I thought I'd live down to my potential now

The day is new
I follow you into your room
The light is off
I fight the thoughts that say to hurt you
I swallow once the entire month I've been watching you
I breathe in deep as you lie down for sleep
I decide to yield

I don't want to do it
But if I don't do it
I'll be dead forever
I don't want to lose it
But if I don't lose it
It can never be found

What if they know
Things that I don't know?
Like why I turned out this way?
And every day is a battle beneath
I'm losing to me
I'm in the dark, my car's in park
Hide somewhere I can't find you (I'll find you)

I don't want to do this
But if I don't do this
I'll be too far gone to save
I don't want to lose it
But if I don't lose it
It can never be found

And I'm falling further
I can't see any other
It don't make sense to me
This makes most sense to me
All I need now is a cover

The day is gray
I try to stay but it's futile
I want to begin again
But I can't pretend I want anything else
I found a way, I found my way
And it starts with a capital K

If I were you, I'd make them pay
Get angrier, they deserve the pain
If that were spoken around my ears
I'd end them all right here

If I were you I'd make a list
And everyone who crosses it
Will be nothing but a glare
In a deep dark square
In the grass somewhere

If I were you I'd hold his hand one last time
'Cause he'll never be seen again
Would you be fine with not wasting time
Ignoring the signs?
I think you're blind

If I were you, I'd say what needs are mine
You're not making a scene
You're just speaking your mind
Would you be fine on the other side?