words die
(5.13.21)

and i can't explain why but suddenly all my limbs feel so heavy
i am actually
having trouble
holding
myself
up
my lips
throat
suffering through an endless drought
my vocabulary is murdered on my tongue
but my thoughts are still running a marathon in my mind
they're saying i have never felt this before and what is this feeling
and it's like i truly truly nothing but truly might be dead right now
he's looking
at me.
looks away.
i can breathe again.

one whole second has passed