Wondering
(11.5.21)

I'd like to think you are dancing with the sun
Twirling you fine, complimenting your eyes
I'd like to think you look down on me
Proud I'm in this place
Smiling with your whole face

But I can't help but think
you still believe that, what you said to me that night
I never saw a sign
All I think is how and what and where and why would you lie?

I don't think you made right in time for light
This thought, it gets me every time
The world: as close to heaven you might be
Why would you leave us wondering?

I'd like to think you are feeling everything
you thought you never would
And never growing old
I'd like to think you stood with pride
And you were grateful you weren't too late

But I can't help but think
you were just faking 'cause you knew they'd cling to those moments
And I never thought my heart would die so suddenly
So relentlessly

'Cause I don't think you made right in time for light
This thought just echoes all the time
The world: as close to heaven you might be
Why would you leave us wondering?

I still hear it all in my head when I am dreaming
I feel it all when I cry
I feel like I could die

I don't think you made right in time for light
This thought just echoes all the time
The world was close to heaven you will be
Why did you leave us?