pitch black music room
lying on the floor
the only light there is in here
is coming from the open door

connected in ways they can't
in your presence i can't think
your eyes speak to me
they whisper as we drink

colors of red and white
a dollar fifty used
walking out in the night
and i'm too confused

the taste of it, mystery flavor
do it more so i know
take it slow, make it last
soon it'll be in the past

our time together is coming to an end
walking around in circles
you try and try, but i refuse
struggling is pointless, there's no use

vanilla perfume and bumblebees
Juliet on the fourteenth
embarrassing videos
racing with ease

we've been through so much, you and i
so i thought this year we'd stare ahead instead of saying hi
but i guess i'm just drawn to you
i know it isn't right so i couldn't do that to you

i'm not quite sure how long i can wait
i'll do something i regret and it'll be too late
i try and try to keep my distance, but you're like gravity
and my feelings only complicate

i've been holding this in but i didn't even know it
trying to come up with reasons why we don't fit
but the truth is that i can't hide from it
if something doesn't happen soon i might give up and quit

last night i made a mistake
eleven to two i was talking to you
i wish i could take it all back
tears are blurring my eyes as shades of blue

i remember taking those polaroids against the yellow wall
but the memories are gone now, there's no proof
i wish i could take back it all
i'm frozen stuck here, i can't even move

how i feel is a mystery to me
i don't even know myself
my eyes are wet, my vision's blurry
i try to breathe and i try not to worry
it's too late now
i'm done, no matter what
hopefully i'll be fine soon
i say it's okay but it's anything but

them

them
with their
jet black leggings
yellow sweater
them

them with their curly hair
dark eyes
o h
their eyes
full of wonder

i could stare into them all day

i didn't cry, i tried to find the right words to say
do you recognize the person standing in front of you today?
i don't want to give up
i don't want to accept the feelings that you don't have
i don't want to mess up
but i've just accepted the feelings that i do have

when we stand close, the spark is always blinding to me
when we touch, the overwhelming feeling reminds me
i'm falling

uncertainty, maybe i was a little bit naive
i mistakenly forgot you were God's most beautiful masterpiece
i don't want to give in
i don't want to accept the truth of our ending
i don't want to fall in
i don't want to accept the truth that we are ending, again

when we stand close, the spark is usually blinding to me
when we touch, i get that overwhelming feeling
am i falling?

i don't want to go but i know that she's waiting for you
you know i'm heartless
you just don't leave the person you love alone

when we stood close, the spark was never blinding to me
when we touch, i wish i got that overwhelming feeling
i'm not falling

when the night is finally cold
we glance at each other and i grab my coat
and i say i've never seen someone so beautiful
you believe all the words that i say
talking to your mother about how it came to this
how you let it slip

you and me
maybe forever though i'm crying on her shoulder as we speak
me and you
it's all too much to lose
and after all you've been through
i want to count on you
but that's only ever in my dream

i remember back in the band room
when i was nervous to kiss you only once
you said it'd be fine if i wanted to take my time
i remember back at our spot
with the bench and the memories that came along
you leaned in slightly but i laughed
things were perfect like that

you and me
could be forever though i'm smiling at her picture as we speak
we and you
it always comes to this, too
after all we've been through
i want to count on you
but that's only ever in my dreams

i'm praying you didn't go back to her
i was a ghost, i know
but we got too close

do you think i'm dumb for spending my time
wondering if you were the one?
when i saw your face, head filled with doubt
i think that should've told me something

i drive around your street dreaming
of the day you'll throw rocks at my window again
helpless, lying in my lap on top of the stairs
when someone comes by, i look them in the eye

do you feel like we were something greater?
not like holding hands was wrong
in the moment right then, you were the one
but that was before i let go

do you think i'm pathetic for spending each night
hoping you were the one?
if it was true, i don't think anything would change
i think that should've told me something

the 15th passed, who guessed i'd write a song?
well, you're wrong, but i've been trying to for so long
the words never seem to form
and i am torn

for some reason i don't think of them anymore
but you're in my head, stucl
time and time and time again
over and over and over still
that night plays in my head
that day another time
the morning after in my mind
and stars have yet to align

i seemed to have a thing for curly hair
in the morning, 10am, stopped me dancing to kiss me there

us
and our place
taking pictures just to see your face
know i didn't mean it that day
you annoy me in the very best way

me and you
we were only kids
making forts with the sheets in your cramped closet
remember getting shut it in?

you and me
the backyard wedding
corner of the ballroom, quietly meddling
when i will be sick of pretending
i'll want you today, tomorrow
forever with no ending

who knew i would make it this far without you
Number 13. October, remember that day?
mother sitting just tables away
bringing home extra fettucine alfredo
kissed me the next morning, i saw your lips curl in the mirror

bowling was more tolerable, me with you
my head on your lap, seeing "she's so cute"
i fell asleep under the table
i always wished i was falling asleep with you

stare at me, stare, try not to look away
five minutes on the boring hockey clock
nervous kissing you in the bathroom
the stupid fight that stole nearly fifteen minutes too
is it bad that i miss fighting with you

No DANCING, i didn't mean that song
i just thought it's how you felt,
made you cry for so long

i should've have left
wish i had said yes.
we'd be celebrating a whole year and you wouldn't mind forgetting

and i'd forget too.

i think i miss you.

i wish i was like you
an excuse for changing my mind so violently
that i can barely breathe
this very morning at 3:15
your letters... i dug them out of my paper bin
collected the songs you haven't heard
January 6th, probably at my street park
something stinging my eyes in the dark
no sun to pin it on
hesitation,
anti c i p  a   t    i     o      n
goodbye for a very long time

all my love,
*******

are we still those same little girls
scared, but we know what we want
started as friends in the backyard tent
always, this will be enough

awkward embraces until they're all i want
gentle with your heart it's taped together
even when we die we won't be apart
astral confirmations, honest to God, i'm here forever

racing to 332nd in all the depths of the dark
henry swore he'd never say a word
i'm near you, can you hear my rapid heartbeat?
break the rules, we don't ever need to think about who we were

apple orchard, always smiling
this day could last for eternity
do you miss it at all? A, K, M, E
weren't you so happy?

i remember, very faint, the first time you said hello
you were with her, i remember i had no one
i met you, i didn't know, but you were the person all along
finally, someone who doesn't pull when i try to lean on

you're my pearl of great price
i'd sell everything to have you, i would
may you know eventually you alone will suffice
the remains of me, carelessly, hold onto you if they could

i'll keep you in my pocket
if you're not with me, someone's bound to steal
your face beams in a locket
9 months, i can finally feel

it's like you're yelling at me, your silence is deafening
confessing the feelings you lied, saying you had
my skin burns hot as you stay porcelain, singing Palestine
will give up as i did you, like it's some futile fad?

i hope i never lose you, i hope this never ends
you take up more space in my mind each day
your hand on my thigh, lips on my neck
i swear, i didn't come back for games to play

you can be vulnerable, i can promise you'll never be alone
it's coming off like you felt an obligation
repeated damage makes it harder than most
four months, they say i'm in love, an accurate duration

this is the end of our movie, i hope
on and off until we get tired of pretending
the audience is anticipated, they're waiting for you to let you
fall into my arms, claps in our theater, three years they have been awaiting

my mind reeks of you
underneath and up top, things you don't see through
the missing of cues and breaking of rules
i wish it weren't as good as they say

her mind rings of me
blinks sting because of me
1 king saw many marks then a long walk home
you know it's always been wrong
just no longer could stay
i know Hell isn't as good as they say

i went to show you something
but you weren't there
i forgot you left a while back
and despite our pact
you went without a care

i went to visit your house
i still remember where you live
one right turn
two more and it worked
but you weren't willing to give

i went to grieve my loss
but you were a ghost
now i live with the guilt
of for some reason loving you still
and you get to live alone

the bird was crying, Lord!
who am i to judge?
and how dare thee prayeth
for one so wrong.
as thine at each moment hath said
all ever been done was feel for me
in yond deep of an ocean i shall never have done
until the day we both nap underground

WE DON'T HAVE TIME
WHERE IS THE LINE?
WHAT DID YOU SAY>
DON'T LET HIM STAY

I AM NOT KIND
YOU KNOW FULL WELL
IF HE IS WITH YOU
THEN I AM IN HELL

YOU THINK OF HIM
I THINK OF YOU
SYAU TRUE TO ME
DON'T LET HIM THROUGH

WE DON'T HAVE TIME
I SAY: SO?
DO OUR FUTURE A FAVOR
LET HIM GO

you are all the good in our hopeless earth
the only one who knows my proud rebirth
you used to be in the palm of my hand
but i tripped, let you go, and you didn't land
you are all the good in the grass and trees
the birds that sing and the songs they leave
I refuse this time: I could die from the guilt
you're the flowers I steal I'm the moment they wilt
you are all the good I only dream to be
the moon at its brightest, everything i need
you're the stranger whose smile I remember on the train
and the trying to forget their familiar face
you are all the good they write songs about
the words they somehow discover to shout
you're the center of attention in an art museum
people try to buy you then ignore you in their hands
you are all the good in the weather at night
through the blizzards and fog, I can still see the light
I'm the caring too little, you're the caring so much
The way that you love will always be enough
you are all the good full of true incandescense
all of my worries mean nothing in your presence
you used to have me in the palm of your hand
i didn't realize the rarity, so i jumped onto land
you are all the good in our hopeless earth
the only one who knows my deadly hurt
I never could tell you why my words tried to kill
But I Love You and you know I always will

Come forth, O lovely one,
Bring your light and something to stare at.
Careful; be wary of the pouting sun.
It is jealous of thy golden outline,
And trace your name on my back;
indent it.
Give me as tattoo of your permanent presence
As I lay at your feet
for your existence makes me weak

my world is bright and happy
that's when it looks in my eyes
it is calling me by its own name
but i melt at the surprise

my world is right next to me
it knows things that i don't
secrets linger in the air
but the smell of us won't

my world is falling in love
and so am i with It
it is calling me by its own name
as i helplessly melt because of it