that should've told me
(8.7.20)

do you think i'm dumb for spending my time
wondering if you were the one?
when i saw your face, head filled with doubt
i think that should've told me something

i drive around your street dreaming
of the day you'll throw rocks at my window again
helpless, lying in my lap on top of the stairs
when someone comes by, i look them in the eye

do you feel like we were something greater?
not like holding hands was wrong
in the moment right then, you were the one
but that was before i let go

do you think i'm pathetic for spending each night
hoping you were the one?
if it was true, i don't think anything would change
i think that should've told me something