I never knew someone could have so much feeling
I never thought I would still be here today
You take for granted, the words that you think
Not knowing someone could be gone in a blink
Seeing your face makes me want to ignore what they say
I can't imagine life without you, friend
And I miss you to no end
I can't express how hard I'm trying to understand
And I loved you to no end
I never knew someone could have so much knowledge
I asked you questions and you gave the answer with no hesitation
You take for granted words you want to say
But can't find the courage
So why not just wait?
One day you'll regret silence in moments there should have been I LOVE YOU
I can't imagine life without you, friend
Hope you know I miss you to no end
I can't express how hard I'm trying to make it make sense
I loved you to no end
You take for granted. Words float in your mind
Feel so inclined but there's just no time
To tell someone you like their hair
Or confess that you actually care
I never told you I was so proud
I never told you how you lit up a crowd
I never asked you how you were
I never said THANK YOU for waking her
Now you'll never know I loved you to no end
To no end
To no end
To no end
I never knew someone could have so much light
Just One Last Look
(10.13.21)
We paint by your last name
'Cause we can't stand to think you'll ever be alone
We wait for steps in the kitchen
Or comebacks that just always seem to win
We hate the way you left
No trace, nothing to connect
Words you didn't say, they linger in my brain
Facing days without a smile on her face
How can you just lay there?
Why can't you just stay here?
We don't need a lifetime
Just One Last Look in your eyes
We talk about your future
'Cause we can't stand to think that you don't have one
We block out the things that we know are true
But we don't want to think them
How can you just lay there?
Why couldn't you just stay here?
We don't need a lifetime
Just One Last Look in your eyes
How come you just lay there?
Why couldn't you just stay here?
We don't need a lifetime
Just One Last Look in your eyes
How can you just lay there
Doing nothing while your whole world's in distress
We don't need a lifetime
Just One Last Look in your eyes
I don't need a lifetime
Just One Last Look in your eyes
Wondering
(11.5.21)
I'd like to think you are dancing with the sun
Twirling you fine, complimenting your eyes
I'd like to think you look down on me
Proud I'm in this place
Smiling with your whole face
But I can't help but think
you still believe that, what you said to me that night
I never saw a sign
All I think is how and what and where and why would you lie?
I don't think you made right in time for light
This thought, it gets me every time
The world: as close to heaven you might be
Why would you leave us wondering?
I'd like to think you are feeling everything
you thought you never would
And never growing old
I'd like to think you stood with pride
And you were grateful you weren't too late
But I can't help but think
you were just faking 'cause you knew they'd cling to those moments
And I never thought my heart would die so suddenly
So relentlessly
'Cause I don't think you made right in time for light
This thought just echoes all the time
The world: as close to heaven you might be
Why would you leave us wondering?
I still hear it all in my head when I am dreaming
I feel it all when I cry
I feel like I could die
I don't think you made right in time for light
This thought just echoes all the time
The world was close to heaven you will be
Why did you leave us?
Never Gonna Know You
(R.3.3.22)
So what you left? I will do better
I miss you still, and I know you've seen my letters
So what you're gone? We didn't even get along
But I miss you still and I don't think that's wrong
I'm never gonna know you
I didn't even get a chance
I know I've said it, but why did you do this?
You didn't even give me a chance
I'm never gonna feel right again
Didn't know who you were
I know I've screamed it, but why did you do this?
You didn't even let me hurt
So what you're not here? I'll heal in time
They make it hard to forget it's true, that you're not fine
So what it's for good? I don't need a break
They think I'm crying all the time
So I'd rather be fake
I'm never gonna know you
I didn't even get a chance
I know I've said it, but how could you do this?
You didn't even give me a chance
I'm never gonna feel right again
Didn't know who you were
I know I've said it, but how could you do this?
You didn't even let me hurt
Where is my explanation?
You know I deserve that at least?
Sometimes I talk to God about you
Praying he fills pity and gives you back to me
How is this fair? I still hear you there
In my walls screaming for feeling in your soul
I'm never gonna know you
I didn't even get a chance
I know I've said it, but why did you do this?
You didn't even give me a chance
I'm never gonna feel right again
Didn't know who you were
I know I've said it, but how could you do this?
You didn't even let me hurt
Requiem
(3.13.22)
when you said you left the fence unmended
i didn’t say that it broke my heart
but i’ll still sing my own requiem
‘cause someone needs to love you in the dark
if ghosts exist
(7.11.22)
I just know you’re spending forever with her
I just know you’re spending eternity on earth
I bet they’re sorry now, if ghosts exist
Are they feeling two words in the atmosphere?
Wisteria on your hip
I move time with my hand taped to my eyes and a bouquet
Time moved me when the anchor tied my ankle just in case
I bet they’re sorry now, if ghosts exist
Are they feeling two words in the stratosphere
Misty with a star smiled sky