Dream Girl
(11.5.23)
Am I making a fool of myself?
Am I too into her hair?
Am I asking too many questions
Like is this fair?
Am I making a scene she’ll judge?
Am I too into her shoes?
Will I always hide?
She tells me hi and I melt like water into wine
She is not a stranger to compliments
But do they say she is the fire
That can’t help but light everything?
Does she read so deep like me?
Am I too into her lipstick shade?
Can she tell I want more?
To kiss her until her lips are bare like before?
Is it just too much to ask?
Or is it far too much too fast?
To braid her hair
Run my hands down her hips
Paint her nails
But I’ve failed
Losing games
(12.29.23)
Losing games is all I’m good at lately
The “burnout”, right?
That’s what your friends said about me
Now all I can think about is how did I get here
when I was just some lovestruck guy
and you didn’t notice me?
You had me in love
You had me in tears
Now I’d do anything to see you here
And you cannot say that I never cared
'Cause somehow the wind reminds me of your hair
And maybe I said that you deserve more
But that was just me trying to even the score
Now I'd do anything, I'd do anything
Playing games is all you like doing, I see
The painting, right?
I just don't know how you did that to me
Now all I can envision is the day you left me hanging
You thought I would wait for you and I did too
But when I was standing in the rain I felt like I was floating
You had me in pain
You took me in vain
You made me insane with the love that you gave
While it was short lived and no longer true
Know that the sun reminds me of you
"You deserve better" but I take it back now
For I could give you everything you need and more
I'd do anything, I'll give you everything
I know I can complete you
You make me so down this way
And I know I'll never erase you
You will always live in my brain
You had me in Venice
You had me in Rome
Thank God you left, you were nearly my home
Your name's in my head when I use super glue
And when I take walks I think of you
I wish you'd defend me and just tell the truth
Instead of making me wait at your place like a fool
You know I'd do anything to love you again
If you think you'll find better, I understand
But I'd do anything
I'd give you anything
I'll give you everything
I'll do anything
Molly
(2.16.23)
I feel a cold touch
Give me that dollar
I’m gonna feel rushed
But now I got her
Molly, I love you
I feel like I’m floating
Your hair is wild and it’s in my eyes
We tangle in sheets all along the night
I feel a burn, go ahead
Take that dollar
You teach me innocence
But now I have her
Molly, I love you
I want to gift you roses
Your nails are long and they draw blood
The room now shines when the liquid floods
Molly, I love you
You bring me ecstasy
Molly, I miss you
You show me fantasy
Molly, I need you
You give me all I need
Through
(6.3.24)
I don’t believe you
How could you do this?
How could you get through this?
I can’t believe you
How could you do this?
How could you dare lose this?
Sounds of grey in my ear
They disappear and it makes me feel lonely
I don’t have anything else to hold me
Come back
I need to know you’ll come back
when I need you most
Come back, and don’t forget to love me so
I don’t believe you
How could you do this?
How could you get through this?
I can’t erase you
Why would you do this?
Why would you get through this?