i wonder
(april 10)

your name is echoing in my mind
i don't know how i'll even survive
seeing you every day only hurts more
knowing it's her you long for

but i'm not so sure, i say to myself
what if it was all because of me?
when you turn around, and see me sitting there
then leave because it'd look sketchy

i'm probably wrong, but i can't help it
i want it to be true
tell me, am i the cause of what you do?
let me think what i want to

i want to think that when you smile it's because of me
but i know that's not true
maybe somebody when i'm feeling blue
you'll cheer me up and make me smile too