i wish

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i wish i knew how to talk to you
i wish i knew what to say
but i have seen the way you look at her
so what's the point anyway?

i could use an excuse
say "i just need the deadline"
then carry the conversation
but it'd be a waste of time
'cause i know in the end you'd still look at her
the way i wish you'd look at me
i wish you'd just forget her
i want your attention on me
turn your attention on me

- the song -


why: i thought he liked this one girl in our drama club but it turns out it was just my brain trying to create "the other girl". if there is no obstacle between us that means there should be nothing stopping me from trying, but i still never did. i guess it was my way of bathing in my familiar melancholy