holding on
(11.21.19)

i'm starting to get tired of waiting for you
to say anything at all
doesn't that mean you don't feel anything
like i do when i walk past you in the hall
why am i still holding on
why am i still waiting
i just want to know you
is it wrong to want to
in the meantime the pieces of my heart are separating

i'm starting to get lonely at night when i sleep
i think of all the ways to get you to look at me
i'm too shy
that's a lie. i just don't want a repeat
of september sixteenth
i can't cry
my feelings don't want to say goodbye to you

i'm starting to get bored of life itself
if i ran away i think it'd be better for myself
i can't cry
i won't lie
i just don't think i'm capable of whatever life tries
to give me, to make me
i just don't think we're meant to be
if you're not right here