heartbeat
(2.10.22)

do you remember asking if i wanted you to light it?
did you notice what i tried to contain?
do you remember the faintest of tears in my eyes?
did it hurt you, seeing me in pain?
do you remember that night? do you really?
did you hold back what you were lusting for?
do you remember my silent begging for effort
as you were begging for more?
do you remember deleting that picture?
did it create a dream in your head?
do you remember, you were saying nothing?
did you catch what i said?
do you remember that moment in his car?
did you think i wanted you to say it?
do you remember being held by my terrified hands?
did you feel our heartbeat? i did