i wish i knew how to talk to you
i wish i knew what to say
but i have seen the way you look at her
so what's the point anyway?

i could use an excuse
say "i just need the deadline"
then carry the conversation
but it'd be a waste of time
'cause i know in the end you'd still look at her
the way i wish you'd look at me
i wish you'd just forget her
i want your attention on me
turn your attention on me

standing there, your hands entwined
every second hurting
but i am not afraid of the dark
i can see your smile is faint
i could make it bigger
still every moment more is painful

life is falling apart while it's falling together
and i can see my future going blank

in a lonely field, i was there
raindrops slid down flowers
and bees kept stinging me on the face
but she's perfect and flawless and worth it
to you
and that's okay
i just want to say to you

that life is falling apart while it's falling together
but with you i keep falling more for you

i know that i shouldn't
but i won't stop for you
i will wait however long it takes for you
i will wait however long it takes with you

frosty blue, ice cold, caramel hair
i told them everything that i was feeling
still i'm lost in your eyes
dreading these painful goodbyes
it's not what i want

and when we are gone
you're still on my mind
and i can't help but want it to be true
still i helplessly want you to fall for me
'cause i'm not getting over this soon

i can't hide, i'm afraid of what will come
after these days of broken reality
sparks of fire in your eyes
still i'm coming up with these lies
to help myself fall less

and when we are gone
you're still on my mind
and i can't help but want to wait for you
still i desperately want you to fall for me
'cause i'm not getting over this soon

remember when you said my name?
still my heart goes quite insane for you, you, you
this life of mine comes to an end
tomorrow when i strike this set with you, you, you

life is not at all what i thought
pacing in my mind
i have fought a million battles since
i thought my life was bliss but i was wrong
i have no one to lean on
my best friend is away
and no one likes my name
so i was wrong
i have no one to lean on i thought that they had changed
but clearly they're the same
but weren't they wrong
no, they have each other to lean on
now they have everything they've wanted
and they're sane finally

i've made sacrifices
but no one's worth the wait
you have her and she's someone to lean
how can you hold on
to what you think is what you want

i still can't breathe when you walk by
nobody else sees but you're my sunrise
if i could wish for something
i'd wish to have nothing
'cause if nothing lasts forever i want you

is it wrong that when you walk by my heart still races?
that you might be looking in my direction
or at all the empty faces
i can't hold onto this trust, i've been there
but i will keep on waiting for what i've got

i need a reason to fight
need a reason to hide
i need a reason to fight
i need a reason

is it right to think of you more than you think of her
and i know this because i've wasted hours
wishing it was me instead of her
and i've waited for a spark
but the only one who always felt it
now has a shattered heart

i need motivation to fight my feelings
i don't see signs of healing
oh, i need a reason to fight
i need a reason

and i never thought that we would be
anything more than i don't see
but it still hurts when my heart bursts
and i never thought that we could be
anything more than what i see in my daydreams

and i need a reason to fight
need a reason to hide
i need motivation to fight my feelings
i don't see signs of healing