lately i've been carrying my own weight
'cause i don't wanna make the same mistakes
i have this thought i always fight
and it comes with the reason that you are my sky
lately i've been carrying my own breath
'cause i don't wanna hurt your precious self
i have this thought i always fight
your smile cures the sadness in myself

why are you so far away?
i hear your voice in my head when i see your face
and i sleep so delicately
but i'm stuck awake lately

i want it all, i wanna fall
want to escape this heavy pace
i wanna know where i am going
i want it all, but there's a wall
inside my heart tearing it apart
i wanna know if i am going nowhere

what's the point of anything
if everything has an ending?
i am lying on the ground
under cobalt skies, above faded brown
i need just a minute to reminisce
i'm stumbling

i want it all, but should i fall
if everything gives me a painful sting?
give me a moment to think

i want it all
what if i fall a little too deep?
i need my sleep
i'd take myself to a cliff or a bridge
or anything for me

why am i so far away?
i hear your voice in my head when i'm lying awake
and i rest like a sleeping beauty
when you're not in my head

oh, i know how it feels
i know it isn't right
my heart is on its heels
and you look golden in this light
oh, i know how it goes
something God doesn't know
just try to understand
learn to take my hand

but waiting for you isn't what i want to do
if you know it must be true
so goodbye, i won't tell another lie
but you have to know
you make my heart feel high

i know what i can't do
make you want me
wish i could show you how
wish i could make you see
that underneath my skin
a heart that beats for you
you don't know just how much
you don't know what i'd do

waiting for you isn't what i want to do
if you know it just might be true
then goodbye, i won't tell another lie
but you have to know, you have to know
you make my heart feel high

waiting for you is never what i planned to do
till i realized that it was true
so goodbye, please don't tell another lie
'cause i'm done waiting for you
to make my heart feel high

every day is a little harder without you
give me a sign, i just wanna be seen
can you hear me?
if you see me, give me a sign that you're there
let me know you, oh, i want to
give me a sign that you're there

when she is older
lift her up and hold her
let her hear your name

waiting for the time when you don't cross my mind anymore
and the words that come out of my mouth
aren't surrounded by the memories of before
but if you saw my face after i heard you say
you wouldn't have left like you did, left like you did
that day

so i don't want to hear that i'm being selfish
'cause we both know that i'm only here feeling helpless
i would've forgave you
i could've moved on and left
but you used me
and refused me
you tried and tried to lose me
so i know what that means
i guess i didn't know you after all

waiting for the moment you leave for good
and stop pretending you want me at midnight
i tried to be everything, everything you wanted and more
but nothing was good enough
then everything got so messed up
i wish i could go back