circles
(7.11.20)

would i be the one who kept you up until noon
saying “don’t go to sleep, don’t leave me”
if i could just go back, tell you what you wanted to hear
everything would be okay here

and i run in circles every time i go around
and that’s fine
but when i wake, i feel dizzy and i wanna escape
you don’t feel alright
if only i could lie


you wonder where i’ve been in my head
i don’t wish it was anyone instead
i wish i could feel how you feel
i wish we were in the past
i wish it was real

i walk in circles every night
sometimes i cry a little on the inside
but when i wake, i feel helpless and i don’t wanna wait
you made me wanna stay
i felt okay

i wish it was a lie
i wish i felt alive
and it’ll heal in time
but i can’t help but believe everything would be fine if i lied

i run in circles every time something reminds me
if i wait, you’ll feel sadder and i don’t wanna fake my feelings
but would it be alright if i lied?