I am not blind
I discern when someone smiles for no reason at all
Or laughs a little louder so I turn
I notice when someone turns 8 shades of red
Simply because of 2 words I said
I may not know why, but I recognize
When a gaze is fixed on me
When there's hesitation to look away
I am not blind but you seem to be

10:20

i'd love to watch the stars
i'd gladly volunteer to be torn apart
even if you send a glance
in an envelope
at least it came from you

i'd love to teach you writing
i'd gladly cheat and write a poem for you
even if it's an accident
every single glance
at least you know i breathe
even if there's no chance
at least you see me
(you do, right?)

i'd love everything and nothing
and all in between
over and over and over and over
and i'd love a conversation

thinking how fast i dive into something new
thinking how much i'd like to know you
and all i wonder is how you can't see through
or maybe you do...?

but we only make conversation when i'm not conscious
there, you make the stars in the sky seem hideous

behind the frantic thieving glances is just a one track mind
a thinning line of exploding emotions
the detanator called in sick so i have to think of you in silence
the flaring of feelings, the bomb squad is on its way
so i have to think of you with patience

but we only make conversation when i look lifeless
and there, you make the sun cry darkness
we only make conversation when i'm unconscious
and there, you make magic so easy

there must be something about the way you do your hair
that's got me in circles all day long
there must be something about the way you smile at nothing
and everyone else wants to be let in

there must be something
'cause you don't break it off
and i'm frozen
there must be something keeping me hoping

and every time you find a star
do you wish something is there in my heart?
just tell me you hate me so i can stop going crazy
if every time you find a flower
and you wish you could do something in your power
well, you can
tell me you do, and i'll stop this infatuating

one look despite the reduction of my glances
the engraving of your eyes on me in my brain
the fact is, your deceitful chances are working
one smile despite knowing better if i'm honest
it's not about the way we don't talk and i know it
i would be tired by now

but you're like a swarm of bees in my heart
you sting at my lungs and tear me apart
your friends, the butterflies, they like to keep you company
and you're like the fly that won't leave me alone
you're suffocating me with your eyes of gold
do you know what you're doing?
i can't seem to find an answer

one word, despite being told that it's impossible
if i wasn't afraid, it would be optional, stoppable
but here i am with birds above my head

'cause you're like a swarm of bees in my heart
you sting at my tongue, tear my words apart
your friends, the butterflies, they like to be in your company
and you're like the fly that won't leave me alone
you're suffocating me with your smile of gold
do you know? do you see? everything i say, i mean
and we haven't had the pleasure to meet

dust spreads across the window
look in, you'll see me holding my breath
one move and the magic's gone
i will remember next time
dandelions on the pavement
every wish is blown out for this
one slip and the chance is gone
i will remember next time

you don't know the kind of impact
one look, my mind's not intact
the impact you have
you don't know the kind of longing
one word, and i'm sent flying
it's all intensifying, electrifying, and i'm trying

dust spreads across the window
look in, you'll see hope through and through
one move, is the magic gone?
was there even any at all?
dandelions on the pavement
all the butterflies have made their home in my chest
one slip, possibility's gone
will there be a next time?

you don't know the kind of impact
you make my week with a "thank you"
and i'm trying to leave
but you don't know the kind of longing
a single word and i'm flying
won't you remind me
if i keep trying, what will come of lying?

do you talk late at night how the glare of the sun lights up my smile?
and your thoughts, are they stunned?
do they run marathons while your words are murdered on your tongue?
i don't want to be this helpless, but i can't help it
what can i do?
i know it isn't harmless; i feel pathetic
when it's everything you do

do you look for me in a room?
do you pray one day i'll notice you?
when you stare, is it meant for her?
i wouldn't blame you
but when i look back, the whole world is still a blur
i don't want to live life passive
but i can't help it if it all feels new
i know it isn't harmless
if i'm being honest
it's everything you do

if you heard the things she hears
you'd fall for yourself too
and there's no way you're this clueless
it's so obvious
what do i have to lose?
'cause it's everything you do

and everything you say
and everything you wear
and i know you don't care
but it's everything you do

One purple field
A hunter green sky
Run so far I can't tell how high I've counted the time
I demand no compensation
You can give me nothing
But adjust your eyes, then, new obsession
Or I will have your head

And I'll chase you, swear I'll chase you into the earth
I'll trick you, oh, I'll tase you
And when you fall, I'll take it all
I'll chase you toward the danger
I will trap you
I will dupe you, oh, I'll shoot you
And when you part, I'll steal your heart

You better run
It's been so long since I had fun
Run so far you can't tell me "WHO?"
That'll be fine
I expect no declaration
You can mail me anywhere
But fix your own face
Better replace it
Still I must stare

And chase you, swear I'll chase you into my palm
I will cage you
I will take you over the bridge, I'll loosen the hinge
I'll hit CALL near the pitfall and I'll push you
I'll pour you, oh, they'll tour you
So when you part, I can steal your heart

I will admit no wrong doings
I was made only to admire
Alter yourself or tell your father
"Please calm down the fire"

I'll chase you, promise to chase you down in the hall
I'll meet you, be discreet for you
And if we're caught, I'll take the fall
I'll greet you, then I'll seat you
Talk to me, friend
Until the end