flower petals on her front porch steps
fallen leaves in the driveway
she opened the door, stepped outside and breathe the air
exhaled deeply and smiled

good morning world, she said
her cat walked with her and rubbed against her leg
water sprang up from beneath the grass
and into a bottle that was made of glass

what's that, she said, picked it up and yelled
blood rushed out her finger like a bullet to the head
all day she sat, with her face in a screen
a bandaid 'round, her finger reading an online magazine .

i'd rather not start to write out of the blue
that would be admitting my feelings for you
but i don't, i swear
this is a phase, it'll pass
my heart just does a thing when i see you in class

i'm such a burden
ev'ry day is a chore
someone please save me

~help

to me you were just another soul i couldn't keep
i tried to prevent feelings but you were ruining my sleep
staying up every night, overthinking in my mind
is it okay that i wish i could rewind?
there's something i saw
it proved what i didn't want to admit
apparently i'm not over him

and words coming out of your mouth, you're reciting your favorite song
nothing i didn't hear once a month or two after midnight
the ground shakes beneath me and it breaks so suddenly
leave me in the street, have no mercy, have no pity

we ask each other how we are. good, how are you?
but i'm waiting, suffocating, drowning, slowly dying
the moment it catches up to me, i will be there no longer
but hopefully in someone who is happy

a fresh start!

that's what i need.

slit eyes, every corpse i see is blurred
i cherish slowly, the beginning words
before thick, after thin, til death do us part
finally freeing my lonely caged heart